Still working on my waistline, it’s not my main focus anymore... I want to gain lol funny coming from me but yes I want to gain so PROTEIN DIET & WEIGHT TRAINING here I come #lovingallofme
4 1719 April, 2019
This was me yesterday getting ready for my concert. I woke up so tender in the morning and had to work hard to not story the tenderness out into some big deal when it felt strong enough to take me over. Instead I stayed with it, just listening with the question “who are you and what is going on with you? What do you need?” What I heard after a long day of being deep in the terrain of the feeling was the voice of a small child afraid of exposure, judgement, and rejection. The old Not Good Enough story was ready to blow in my imagination. So we spent some time together, that little me and I, chillin in the woods with this mama madrone and many others like her, and came around to the place of it being cool to be scared and get on with it anyway. She wanted to go home; I said that’s not an option, what else could help you feel more at ease? She said chocolate, so chocolate happened, and we set up the stage and gave the gift to the absolute best of my abilities. I mean, isn’t that how it goes???
And then the concert was so freakin sweet! Because I had welcomed that voice into the room, not tried to repress it, not made it a problem, not tried to pretend it wasn’t there, just walked into the room with her and included her in the journey, she became an awesome part of it all.
I could have been freaked out. I could have let the story take over, could have made it a problem, could have been worried or upset about it. But I chose curiosity, inquiry, and compassion instead. I wanted to make an ally out of that energy, and it was easier than I would have thought to do that.
I love myself. All of me. The fearful one. The war making one. The joyful one. The addicted-to-social-media one. All the ones. I welcome and embrace every part of me, no matter what voice it speaks in, because all of me is holy and all of me is the gift of my miraculous life. All of me is mine to love and mine to share. All of me is welcome here ❤️🧚🏽♀️❤️
And my KICKSTARTER is live! Help me make an album, link in bio ❤️🤸🏽♂️❤️
A lot can happen when you put yourself first.
You can go from being uncomfortable in your body, from being stuck within your life, to being empowered to keep pushing on your journey, to never ever give up and to help others do the same. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I honestly didn’t think my journey would last. I had given up time and time again. I had tried every program, quick fix, and it all never seemed to work.
I was the QUEEN of giving up on myself. Does this sound familiar?
I challenge you to not give up on yourself and to put yourself first. And girl, let me tell you... not giving up on yourself is hard. But damn is it freaking worth it!
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6 8618 April, 2019
Listen Queens learn to take good care of yourself, it will lift your spirit, boost your confidence, and make you feel strong. When someone tries to throw you shade, it will bounce right off you.... Then you can look your enemies straight in the eye, keep your chin up and shoulders back.... and say ITS BY THE GRACE OF GOD THAT I’M STILL HERE!!! #Queening#LovingAllOfMe
Gonna get pretty real for a minute... I've been struggling to love my belly lately. It's been a part of my body that I've been trained to hate, for as long as I can remember. Even in #bodypos spaces and #plussizefashion a #tummy like mine is not considered ideal and I struggle to love it, when despising it is all I've ever really known. But here I am, putting it out there, in hopes of setting myself free from the shame and discomfort I still feel, for not having a flat stomach.
My #selflove journey hasn't been easy and I don't always love every part of me, all the time. That's why I'm sharing myself in this way... Because I suspect you all have had much of the same feelings about yourselves, in one way or another. Maybe you've looked at me and wondered how I could have so much confidence all the time, but the truth is that I really do struggle every day. Some days more than others... But I won't stop working on #lovingallofme 💖 It's much too important. I've come too far and worked too hard for my #confidence and I'm not willing to give it up this easily. #fatacceptance#yummywithatummy#tummythursday#fatpositive#vbo
I gained weight...A LOT of weight. I have about 40lbs to lose before I get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. But before I do, Imma embrace every ounce of this baby fat. My body had the honor of bringing a child into this world and because of that I will never be ashamed of my lady lumps. Grateful for every curve. On the flip side, please keep my back in prayer cuz Lawd 😩😂 #lovingallofme#thickums#loveyourselfatanysize#selflove ❤️
Photo disclaimer: my stomach is not flat. I’m working on that. I have a waist shaper on in this pic that is sucking me in. I wear it about 2 hours a day. So far it’s been helping my belly to return to pre-baby but I’ve got a ways to go and that’s ok. 😊