happy birthday lydia, thanks for the good times 🖤 (peep the last pic from our first shoot ever 😩)
6 35319 hours ago
During my IG hiatus, @roycemont somehow convinced me to do a whole photoshoot for a clothing designer and honestly it was nerve-racking but eventually I relaxed and thanks to Royce, the images came out great
Sorry In advance for the long post🖤
One of my favorite pictures I took last year; it has the perfect balance of peace, beauty, and sadness all at the same time. .
An hour before this picture, I was at The Mayo Clinic just a couple miles away being diagnosed with Drug Resistant Epilepsy. (Just to inform, this type of epilepsy is incurable by medicine, seizures develop and get worse with time, and the only way to cure them is through brain surgery or other surgical processes) Some of the hardest words I would ever hear; In this picture and that moment, I truly think I knew the rest of my year would be the hardest, loneliest, most unpredictable, and sickest year of my life. There is an unimaginable amount of shame, embarrassment, and fear with this diagnosis, these qualities and feelings quickly took over my life.
People on here always ask me “Why are you back in Kentucky?” “How do you travel so much?” “What do you even do?” “Why are you always gone?” My Instagram & this library I’ve created is compromised of the little moments, my healthy, happy, beautiful moments. The ones I want to remember and savor and will always be thankful for. They’re usually posted while Im in a hospital bed for weeks or sometimes taken right before I had a seizure that ended my day and week. Among the million things I’ve learned this year, I’m so happy I learned to be grateful and thankful for these moments. These little moments, the healthy, happy ones I will never ever take for granted. The ones where you forget the sickness and remember all the beauty that you’re surrounded by, and all the love and happiness you can create around you. These little moments have kept me going all year, and I never know when they’ll start or end but when they happen, they feel like magic. .
After a year, I’m not without seizures but my heart and soul are happier and healthier than ever. My beauty, not defined by sickness anymore, comes from within. .
With this year, I decided my words are Peace, Creativity, & Love. Being creative takes vulnerability, and my first step in creating my peace is sharing my story, & to never stop sharing my little moments that feel like magic.
I have a lot of bikini work to post, happy #humpday
“So, when I started taking self portraits I was totally able to see my body in a different way because I saw it was this work of art, so that started healing how I saw myself, especially being nude and photographing myself naked. It was very liberating and I started realizing it started helping other people too being like ”Oh my god, you can be comfortable with your body, how does that work?” And so I started shooting other women nude for myself cause I started looking at other woman and being like “Oh my god, I think they are so perfect” and they have stretch marks or body hair, it totally changed how I see beauty, seeing all these other women and being like, “You are all perfect.”
Thanks Kate for being the best❤️ And thanks to @hanamendel & @annienoelker for assisting me and being lighting masters! Love y’all!!!