취미로의 요가/직업으로의 요가_김성미
3. 요가를 하면서 가장 힘들었던 순간
요가강사로의 전향을 고민하면서 정말 심각하게 당장 내일 사표를 내야 하나 하는 생각에 심장이 두근거렸다. 남편에게 이런 고민을 털어놨더니 남편은 바로 인터넷을 검색하더니 요가강사가 얼마나 받는지 알아보기 시작했다. 일반적으로 요가 강사는 한시간에 3만원을 받는다고 한다. 회사에서 받는 월급에 비교도 할 수 없는 수준이었다. 물론 가치있는 일이지만 본업으로 삼으려면 소득을 고려하지 않을 수 없는 부분이고 마침 상당한 대출을 받아 집을 장만한 상태였다. 외벌이로는 상당히 부담스러웠기 때문에 남편은 결사 반대했다. 대신 그렇게 하고 싶다면 내가 직장에서 버는 만큼 요가로 돈을 벌 수 있다는 것을 먼저 증명해 보일 것을 요구했다. 그렇게 새집으로 이사를 하면서 남편에게는 거실은 요가 스튜디오로 사용하겠노라고 선언하고 거실에 있던 소파를 버렸다.
우여곡절 끝에 나는 집에서 홈레슨을 하게 되었다. 주거 공간이고 토요일에만 수업을 할 시간이 났기 때문에 대놓고 요가 수업하러 오라고 홍보하기 어려워서 우선 지인들 중에서 사람들을 모았다. 그 중 인천에서 20분 정도 운전해서 오신 어떤 선생님이 계셨는데 암 수술을 하신 뒤 몸 회복하고 계시는 단계였기 때문에 세심하게 신경 써서 수업을 했다. 처음으로 내가 요가 개인지도를 한 것이다. 다른 지인들도 멀리서 찾아와 함께 요가 수련을 해주어 고마웠다. 모두들 피드백도 너무 좋아 굉장히 뿌듯했지만 토요일 새벽부터 일어나 집을 청소하고 수업 준비하고 남편 내보내고 수업에 지도하고 나면 몸이 녹초가 됐다. 시작한지 몇 주 안되어 지쳐 나가 떨어졌다. 하지만 그 경험을 통해 본업으로 삼고자 했던 내 꿈을 향한 도전을 했다는 만족감을 느꼈고 요가원을 운영한다는 것이 얼마나 어려운 것인지 살짝 맛 보았기 때문에 깔끔하게 내려놓을 수 있게 되었다.
서울/ 회사원,요가강사,아로마테라피스트/ 요가수련_15년차
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I think it’s pretty fair to say that we’ve all experienced some kind of hurt or pain in our lives. I certainly have.
In the past, I’ve chosen to do all sorts of things with these feelings. I’ve blamed others for my pain, I’ve tried numb the pain with partying or food or by micro managing and holding a tight grip on my life or those around me.
I’ve recently read in the book, Rising Strong by Brene Brown that the most damaging thing that we can do when we experience pain is challenge our own lovability.
Brene writes that many of her patients who experience painful breakups or distant and uncaring relationships with their parents spoke about responding to this pain with a story that they are unlovable... This was a story I was all too familiar with!
She adds that this is the most dangerous conspiracy theory of all. Just because someone isn’t willing or able to love us don’t mean we are unlovable. Just writing this brings a tear to my eye. It’s so simple and poignant.
If you haven’t had a chance to read Brene’s work I strongly recommend it. Or at least watch her ted talk! Her voice hits home with ease and power.
Cuando abres el corazón, abres los ojos 🧿
Expresión de anahata (cuarto chakra, conectado con el corazón) 💚
Un centro de energía muy poderoso que se encuentra en nuestro cuerpo. Un chakra del corazón abierto te ofrece equilibrio en tu mente y en tu cuerpo, te brinda mayor empatía y capacidad para ofrecer y recibir amor incondicional, así como conciencia por las consecuencias de tus actos. Con ello, podrás disfrutar mucho más de la vida.
📷 Amaya, niña 5ā
In the past nine days I have only worked out twice (one cardio and one yoga) because I just haven’t had the energy. This nutrition plan I am on is different for me and it takes a lot of energy to fuel up. I miss my daily workouts, mainly because it helps my mood. So tonight I spent 30 minutes with a gentle yoga practice and it felt great. I have more energy these past two days and I am hopeful to practice daily for the next 11 days of this program. Yoga helps me truly listen to my own body and feel all the stretches and movement...and it felt great!!
Push all the noise, the bullshit, everything that isn’t of benefit to you out of the way. You don’t need it. 📷: @che.holts
2 1621 minutes ago
Here are just SOME modifications you can do for crow, side crow, Scale, Eight Angle and Firefly!
Did you know... in the yoga world drishti means gaze? In a yoga posture an instructor frequently will tell you where your drishti should be.
It’s no different from our world, where everything wants our gaze, our attention, our focus and thought. In a world hungry for your eyes, turn your eyes upon Jesus.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2
Apparently, yesterday was quitters day or break you resolutions day (I didn’t know this was a thing). I personally have not set resolutions for the past couple of years. Instead, I now make intentions that focus more on the journey and less on the goal. However, if you made a resolution and you feel like you fell off the wagon or struggling to stay on the wagon... learn to take a break, and not to quit. Take a deep breath and keep on going. You’ve got this! I hope you reach your goal, but remember to embrace, live, and enjoy the journey.
1 46an hour ago
Wobble wobble 😁 I’m obsessed with my balance lately. Day 19 of my handstand goal and I’m seeing more hang time and less hitting the wall behind me 🎉
Self-care Sunday rolling over onto Monday. I don’t work Mondays, and it’s so nice to have an extra day off. Spending it wisely! #supinehero#suptavirasana
12 1675 days ago
Today’s practice was challenging mentally. I’ve been working on flexibility, and learning that in order to deepen my practice I need to let go of my expectations of where I WANT to be and be present in the moment. It’s so hard not to constantly think of the end goal (especially when you’re feeling uncomfortable and experiencing any unpleasant emotions), and I’m having to remind myself to be here, with every inhale-exhale. #camelpose#ustrasana
10 2406 days ago
It is worth remembering that the time of greatest gain in terms of wisdom and inner strength is often that of greatest difficulty. So go within every day and find the inner strength so that the world will not blow your candle out. Nothing can dim the light which shines from within. .
peace out Amsterdam ✌🏼
I said goodbye to my happy amsterdam yesterday, what an adventure I had with my parents😏, totally different than my last time there but equally fun👌🏼! there is always things to discover, new food to taste, new people to meet and new cultures to be appreciated ♥️
I‘m spending my saturday evening binge-watching the new season of @graceandfrankie . 🙌🏼
What series are you currently watching?
25 8794 hours ago
This year I told myself I was going to dive head first into the opportunities given to me, but also dive head first into making my own plans,dreams and opportunities.
Often, the biggest thing that stops me Is going about it alone.
There’s SO many times where I’ve thought ‘ah I really want to go there!’ Or ‘I really want to try that!’ And then have come to the conclusion that.. I have absolutely no one to go with... and do you know what? the amount of times I DIDN’T GO or didn’t do the thing I wanted to do because of this?!🤦🏽♀️
If there’s something I want to do, why should not having anyone to go with me stop me?
And it’s not like I don’t have any friends or family... but sometimes, even your closest of friends have different interests, responsibilities, plans and commitments.
So that’s my aim this year.
To do the things I want to do.
To travel the places I want to go.
To make the plans I want to make.
To step out of my comfort zone. To meet people along the way.
And to have the courage to chase after what I want.❤️
But for now.... the only thing I’m diving head first into is my BED 🛌😴.
Happy Saturday everyone!!