With pain comes strength
I don’t remember how I found this quote, but it’s one of my favorites because of everything that has happened throughout my life. From being born w/ Hip Dysplasia, going in and out of the hospital/physical therapy, going to my dream school at SF, only having to leave to a CC, and ending up at a school that I never really wanted to go in the first place. You’ve only seen the good that I have posted on here, but there were some bad times. The depression I went through leaving SFSU, the anxiety and the feeling of a failure having to backtrack at LBCC, and the depression and anxiety I went through with two out of three of my surgeries. Some people have asked me why I put myself through school and surgeries, I could’ve just gotten my surgeries, taken a simple job that can accommodate me with my hips, and be done. I honestly don’t know why, but all I can think of is Denzel Washington’s commencement speech on falling forward; no matter how many failures you have in life, you use those to keep going and strive for your big break. With that mindset, I finally did catch that break, both w/ my hips and my undergrad, but I’m not done. I don’t know the exact pathway I’ll be going for grad school, but it will be to help kids with physical and mental disabilities. I want to say thank you to everyone that joined me in my ceremony, my dinner, and to every single family member and friend that has been a part of my journey. From my Gators up North, my Vikings in LB, to my Titans in the OC thank you for supporting me and being there for me at my lowest and highest. Most of all, thank you to my parents and my brother. You guys were there since day one always pushing to make sure I was accommodated and always supporting me no matter what. So, after 7 years, going to 3 colleges, taking on 3 surgeries, and receiving a total of 3 degrees...I’M DONE...for now 😉💙🧡🐘 #csuf#classof2019#tusksup#calstatefullerton#psychology#graduation#fallforward#withpaincomesstrength#hipdysplasia#healthyhips4life
Today was supposed to be my rest day so I just did some body weight exercises and cardio. I was on my last round of box squats and my biggest fear came true. I didn’t jump high enough. Thankfully my left leg made it on the box but the toe of my left foot hit the edge of the box so I ended up taking a knee and not completely falling. I’m grateful that I didn’t actually get hurt other than my pride. #withpaincomesstrength#progressnotperfection#bodyweightworkout#boxjumps
Today was shoulder day! Even got a video of my single arm shoulder press on the smith machine. I was feeling down today until I caught a glimpse in the mirror. I feel like my waist looked tiny today and I see baby traps coming in! I think my kick ass shirt also played a roll in me feeling like a badass after my workout. #shoulderworkout#babytraps#progressnotperfection#withpaincomesstrength
I haven’t posted a transformation in a while so let’s #flashbackfriday .
This journey I’ve been on has been hard, started 5 years ago seriously trying to change my life. I’ve struggled so much back then I did cardio, cardio, cardio & lost about 85lbs. But the damage I did to my body by under eating & excessive cardio is haunting me now. It’s like an up hill battle after running down that same hill so fast. I’ve managed to gain weight the proper way & I look way better now. Everyone’s story is not the same....🙌🏼
Don’t judge others we are all trying & have different goals!! My body isn’t perfect but I’m extremely proud of all of my transformations!! 💪🏼🔥🙌🏼 I currently have openings for training in my classes 5:00am & 6:30pm!! Message me for location & info!!
Happy Friday everyone!! #transformation#withpaincomesstrength#nevergiveup#behappy#lovetheskinyourin#blessed#motivation#womensupportwomen
My mom often reminded us of this truth....That which does not kill us makes us stronger 💪🏻 #withpaincomesstrength
9 7416 May, 2019
Took this pic after my double. #stepclass first and then power circuit. I’m absolutely amazed with how much my endurance has increased especially for step. This shirt also means so much more to me lately. So many times in my past, my mindset wasn’t right and I never made progress. Now I am finally making progress and it really is all because of my mindset. Even after a double workout I’m smiling and feel great. My “diet” and workout are no longer a chore but a part of my daily routine. I’m so happy that I’m getting healthier and happy while doing it. #progressnotperfection#withpaincomesstrength#mindsetiseverything#weightliftingwomen
I’m turning into quite the little chatterbox on my stories lately. It turns out it takes a lot less time to say what I have to say then to draft an entire post. Today on my stories I’m answering a question on what worked for my recovery.
Have you ever thought about a day, a time, a place, that forever changed your world? Perhaps you’ve had many times and places or events that changed you, grew you, defined you. The stories we each hold can make us or break us. This place was one of my most favorite places to go, to walk, to clear my head. This favorite place, in a blink of an eye, became a dark place. A place of pain. A place of tragedy. However, I still come here. Maybe to find peace again, I can really say...I don’t know. What I do know is, I’ve grown. I’ve grown to accept. I’ve grown to love. I’ve grown in more ways than one can articulate into words. The tragedy this very place holds does not define me. It’s helped make me. While I cannot erase what happened, I can embrace the life that has unfolded. #live#love#withpaincomesstrength
Happy Monday !! We miss our babies like crazy when they are gone, but being a blended family/sharing custody we have every second week “off”. We get the opportunity to head to the gym, visit with friends, focus on our goals, and spend some one on time together. Looking forward to the week! Have a great Monday everyone! #crushinggoals#happymonday#switchoverday
7 20013 May, 2019
Wir alle wollen glücklich sein. Keiner will leiden.
Aber Du kannst keinen Regenbogen genießen, wenn es nicht erst regnet!
“She made broken look beautiful and strong look invincible. She walked with the universe on her shoulders and made it look like a pair of wings.” ❤️
Mom, thanks for being our rock. A single mom with two small kids with nothing but all we knew and felt was your love. You were strong, beautiful, and held so much grace. You never yelled and only made me not want to disappoint you. You always put me and my brother first. I knew I was in trouble when you said in your calm (stern) voice, “Now Jacqueline.” 😉 Thank you for being the best mom and grandma and loving us unconditionally! Love you always!!! ❤️ #mom#mothersday#love#unconditionallove#beamazing#bestrong#withpaincomesstrength#myrock#mymom
Headstand practice after my workout today....🙌🏼💪🏼💕
This would be like a PR lol I have never done this much poses with out tipping over, definitely happy about that.....I’ve always loved to do powerlifting just as much as yoga & other workouts. It’s always good to challenge you body in more ways than one.
My current battle is pull ups...🤦🏼♀️
I will get there...one day!! #wannabeastrongeryogi#powerliftingwomen#headstands#corework#withpaincomesstrength
0 3211 May, 2019
Happy Mother’s Day to the most beautiful two woman. Today will be a hard one without you nan, but I’m sure you’ll be Their with us. I’m so greatful for you mum, and all you do for me. You’re strength makes me stronger 💝 #mothersday#nan#mum#withpaincomesstrength 💜
wir brauchen wieder mehr Alltagshelden um uns herum...Meine persönlichen Helden habe ich bereits gefunden, und sie begleiten mich momentan bei allen Hoch‘s und Tief‘s die ich in den letzten Monaten so durchleben musste. Ein dickes Dankeschön an meine „Helden“ das Ihr mich so gut unterstützt und mir bedingungslos zur Seite steht! ❤️ Wer sind Eure unverzichtbaren Alltagshelden? #abnehmen#fitwerden#familie#freunde#unterstützung#staystrong#withpaincomesstrength
Haven’t really been feeling myself lately in so many ways. No matter how far we are in our journey we all struggle. 4 years in to my journey & I’m still learning. Slowly but surely....💕
Currently my goal is to keep my strength for powerlifting while chipping away my stubborn fat...🙌🏼💪🏼💕🔥 #feltcutemightdeletelater#powerliftingwomen#withpaincomesstrength#fluffy
I apologize for the repetitive half naked photos. But I want these side by side pictures to remind you that you may not always see your hard work pay off in the mirror. Just by comparing these two photos, you would have no idea how hard I’ve worked since my health issues back in Oct/Nov. I’ve regained my strength 100% to where I was, possibly even more. I switched up my routines and I’m doing harder workouts for less time. I’ve improved my strength, I’ve built more muscle, and I’m reaching personal victories, instead of chasing weight loss for now. I feel better than I’ve felt in years (working part time helps!) and I almost never have nerve pain or fatigue anymore. I feel healthy, happy and stronger than I’ve felt in a very long time. But you may not see that change in these pictures.
Remember. Not every fitness victory is going to be seen in the mirror. And that’s ok. Don’t let your body shape or your scale define you. Fitness is about getting strong, healthy, and happy. It’s a celebration of what your body can do. Focus on how you FEEL, and not how you look. @victoriakult
What is Guillain-Barre Syndrome?
Most people have never heard of the disease I had. It affects 1-2 out of every 100,000 people, so though it’s rare, it still affects a LOT of people.
GBS is an autoimmune disease, meaning that our own immune system mistakenly attacks our bodies. In GBS, it specifically attack’s the peripheral nerves (all the nerves outside of the spinal cord and brain) quickly paralyzing us. Some cases are mild - paralysis of the legs; some are severe - complete paralysis from head to toe. My case was very severe, I was in ICU on life support within 72 hours of my first symptom (a tingly finger) and stayed there for almost 3 months.
While there is no cure, GBS is an acute illness, meaning that its onset is very rapid, and then fades over time. There are treatments that help speed up that recovery, however not everyone recovers. About 30% of survivors are left in wheelchairs and using walking aids. 5% die from other complications of the disease. I am very fortunate to have the outcome that I did.
A common question I get asked is what caused it? With GBS, usually something happens to trigger an immune response, and about 2-4 weeks later, symptoms of GBS start. About 30% of GBS cases are brought on by the campylobacter bacteria (food poising from undercooked chicken). Other triggers include the flu, flu vaccines, surgery, pregnancy, etc,etc. Sometimes a trigger is never determined.
Given the fact that I gave birth and had a c-section 3 weeks prior, that is what my doctors and I believe triggered my GBS.
With GBS being rare, I do what I can to bring awareness to it and to help others going through it. A rare disease only feels rare until you’re the one going through it, and I don’t want anyone to ever feel alone ♥️
8 years ago today I was diagnosed with Guillain-Barre syndrome, when Casey was just 3 weeks old. I went to the hospital with what I thought was a pinched nerve, and did not come home for 5 months. I spent 3 months paralyzed in ICU, before I learned how to breathe on my own again, how to hold cutlery, how to eat, drink, talk, shower, and then walk again.
Who knew that while I was going through the most terrifying time of my life, that it would end up being the best thing to happen to me. I discovered my strength, I discovered my worth and I discovered that I could do anything if I put my mind to it. The things I’ve accomplished since having GBS, from learning to walk, then run, from writing a book to climbing a mountain, speaking at Universities, volunteering with the GBS foundation and helping others through this disease, and becoming stronger in the gym than ever before– these are things that I would have never accomplished, had I not had GBS. And for that, I will forever look back on this day with gratitude and appreciation for the woman that it made me. #gbsanniversary #withpaincomesstrength#feb22#shareyourrare#guillainbarre#gbs#autoimmunedisease#strength#determination