Had a blast at Macy pride First time going & had a blast I came to see @bigfreedia@bigfreedia you already knnnooowwww! I went on stage
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For 17 years I felt angry, fueled by self hatred and loss as my body changed and grew in ways I felt I had no control over, in a way that didn't fit who I felt I was. I was angry that I was the one who had to feel this way, that I had to be trans, that I was being teased and labeled and misunderstood. Why me?
It wasn't until last summer, after having reached one of the lowest points emotionally and mentally, that I broke down, and that that anger became what allowed me to come out. Maybe it was desperation, a need to no longer be hidden. Maybe I had had enough of what I was doing to myself, or really, not doing. Maybe I finally was ready to be myself, and honour that young boy you see above. Maybe, I was ready for change.
Yet now a year later, out and visible, sometimes that anger comes back. Sometimes that self hate overwhelms me still, and I think back, why me?
I don't think I'll ever know the answer for why, but I do know I have the opportunity to grow immensely, to be part of a community, and to learn to truly love myself entirely. I need to be there for that younger boy who never got the chance I have now to be myself.
That anger and self hate is valid, but I've lived consumed by it for long enough. I've got a chance now, I've got an opportunity to love. And I will, for that young boy who just wanted to play soccer deserves it.
This women right here is my rock. The love of my life. The greatest thing to ever happen to me. In August we have been together for 8 years. In July we have been married for 2. It just seems like forever. I learn new things about this women on a daily basis. It's the greatest feeling in the world to be married to your best friend. I don't know what I would do without her.
In one month I will be having a surgery that will change my life drastically. I will finally have top surgery and have a huge weight lifted off my chest. I mean that literally and figuratively. And I couldn't have gone through this process if it wasn't for my wife. She has helped me with things that are unexplainable. Thank you so much babe. I love you!! #transman#transgender#ftm#topsurgery#30daysleft#wife#loveofmylife#married#westvirginiauniversity#wvu
Uns vão achar brincadeira, apenas uma comparação ou eu estar postando essa foto de cabelos longos, pretos, com batom do fundo do baú só pra postar mesmo e dizerem que eu era uma mulher bonita. NÃO!
Eu sou um homem trans, um homem em evolução, um “cara” que têm a mesma essência da foto da esquerda e que por dentro, vai manter essa essência pra sempre!
Sua genitália nao vai te fazer mais mulher, mais homem ou oque quer que seja.
Todos temos um gênero e uma identidade de gênero e se você não sabe o que isso significa, nao julgue, nao faça perguntas desnecessárias antes de você ter pelo menos noção do que você está perguntando para a pessoa. Se informe, pesquise, tenha respeito. Você nao precisa aceitar nada, até porque eu sempre digo que ninguém é obrigado à nada nessa vida! MAS RESPEITA!
Eu demorei alguns anos pra aceitar o que eu sou hoje, HOMEM TRANS e cada dia que passa eu vejo o quanto eu perdi tempo tentando achar que simplesmente eu era somente lésbica, afinal eu também nao sabia o que era um homem trans e o significado do meu ser, do que eu sempre na verdade fui!
Hoje eu sei o quanto estou feliz e sei que vai ser um processo delicado, longo, mas sei também o quanto eu vou estar cada vez melhor, completo e realizado!
Pra quem tem dúvidas, e quiser perguntar mais sobre esse assunto ou tem curiosidade de saber e entender o que eu sou, segue esse cara aqui @transdiario . Foi com ele que iniciei meu entendimento e tem sido ele minha referência pra ter a minha coragem de realmente aceitar quem eu sou. E a minha namorada que já sabia mesmo antes de mim, que tem me apoiado e tem tido toda paciência do mundo comigo @adaniluz ❣
Damn it’s been 9 years😳 I was 14 years old going on 15 in the picture on the left. Crazy how time flies
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The first photo I was 1 year on testosterone. I had this worry that it was the peak of my changes and that it would slow down from there.
Now almost 4.5 years on testosterone and I don’t see it slowing down too much.
I still get dysphoria and need my reminders of where I started.
I will be at Chicago PrideFest today! If you are there, be sure to give me a hug.