I'm really excited for The Back Bend Lab next Saturday. It's sold out😊 😊😊 I'm so grateful for how much I've struggled here, cried here, wanted to give up here. Grateful I still have so much to learn and over come here. I'm happy to share not as an expert at back bending but as a person who has probably struggled just as much as you. And possibly much more😂
I'm the most grateful for incredible teachers who have taught me invaluable lessons in this pose mostly by shining some light and turning a mirror to me. Techniques that I've been taught I will share and some tools I've picked up along the way.
Extra: chicken floss bread. Aiyooo yooo. But still i managed to resist to buy tealive. Cuz its better to waste my calories at food than drink. Hip hip hoorayyyy. Congrats girl #notsocleaneating#stillstruggling
Back home trying the Handstand-Book Challenge again - failed it😅
Therefore i‘m trying something easier to build up the control for this move, still struggling with the easy shit🙈
Further i would like to nominate 3 brothers of mine to try the preparation exercise too - @bruckmiller@matthiasbreitwieser@hiekimyoga - show what you got & give me 3 clean handstand pushups on books with wall-support😁
I was going to post this Friday, but work-life caught up to me and I lost my optimism. I guess truth number two is my anxiety disorder has spun out of control. I'm finally seeking professional help but even with private insurance, it's difficult to get help. I'm currently in a holding pattern.
I don't want to entirely lose my good moments so I still want to share the happier post I had started.
”In contrast to my previous post, in this picture, I feel pretty. I had my performance review and meetings. I normally work at home in PJs and don'people face to face. I MAYBE wear a dress once or twice a year. I doubt I put on makeup once a month.”
This is where my draft stopped. But on that day I wanted to express how happy I was with my self image. It wasn't just the hair, dress, or make up. I honestly don't think those are the defining qualities in true beauty. From today's perspective, I know I felt pretty because I tried.
Even the thought my anxiety was telling me the worst possible outcomes, I tried. It still ended up being a shit day but not for the reasons I feared. I nailed the performance review and meetings I'd worried over. So, all things considered, I'm taking it as a win. For half a day I was beautiful (to me) and I conquered my fears. Next time maybe I can have a whole day.
10 3111 August, 2019
#throwback#20190810 #筑波8耐自転車レース ＃サマー #tsukuba#hachitai#bicyclerace#insummer is one of the popular relay bicycle race in Japan.
it is a seasonal race, so it is held during spring, summer & fall. 1 team consists of 3-6 riders. my team consists 4 riders (including me). the rule is simple:
1. team with most lap count in 8 hours is the winner.
2. each team should change member (pit in) at least 16 times, below that your team will be disqualified.
it was really hot around 1pm-3pm. temperature at that time was around 37 degrees. 😵🤪🤣
i was born in tropical country but this heat is freakin hot!! 🤣
it was tough race because of the heat and really good experience for me. really learn a lot from this race. especially on conditioning department.
Some fun in the backyard again🤘🏻 sometimes I’m in the mood to work out outside like today and some days I want to be in a gym lmao Idk but I went a bit heavy on dips again, still struggling with 2 plates but 1 plate I am doing pretty good 💪🏻 •
So, part of my rebranding my social media is because I want to be my authentic self. It's exhausting keeping up a facade for likes and potential brand deals.
Part 1, sharing a personal failure. Three years ago, I lost 30 lbs and was nearly halfway to my goal weight. Excuses aside, by this April I'd gained it all back. My health was starting to deteriorate. I could feel the consequences of my weight. So, since April I've been dieting and exercising. I'm down around 21 lbs now. It's depressing to me to be 9 lbs from where I was and 50 from where I want to be.
But I sincerely take comfort in that all those bad things my body was doing in April, have stopped. I feel like I am on track and for me, that will have to be good enough for today.
So here's my post-workout out of shape out of breath red sweaty selfie. #nofilter#healthierme#tryingtobebodypositive#stillstruggling
Wow I haven’t updated in a while so here goes. I had my Cystoscopy and everything looked normal inside my bladder according to the Urologist. Not sure about the outside however. Had an ultrasound done on my bladder and kidneys and that also came back normal. I’m kind of disappointed as I feel like nothing changed and I have no real answers there. The meds I was given for my IC haven’t made any difference and one gave me a horrible allergic reaction 😩 I knew going in to see the Urologist that it wasn’t really going to help that much because all of this is being caused by Endometriosis and not the other way around. Until I can get my Endo sorted out and treated properly then the IC won’t be any better either. They go hand in hand unfortunately. Fortunately my Endo specialist appointment is on the 30th and I’m praying I’ll be able to finally receive the care and treatment that I desperately need. Hope everyone is having a great and hopefully minimal pain weekend 😎 #endoupdate#endoproblems#stillstruggling#interstitialcystitis#endometriosis#endometriosispain#endometriosisawareness#chronicpain#chronicfatigue#chronicillness#pelvicpain#pfd#adulting#urologist#anxious#endospecialist#lifeupdate#weekend
Catch your dreams before they slip away
Dying all the time
Lose your dreams and you will lose your mind
Ain't life unkind?
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But what happens when you take those criticisms with you into adulthood?🤔
You walk like you’re not enough
You talk like you’re not enough
You dance like you’re not enough
You sing like you’re not enough
You do that presentation like you’re not enough
You earn a wage that reinforces your belief that you’re not enough
Everything you do begs the question, "am I enough?"😢
Changing that belief is essential to your future and how you live your life; it can be challenging, but not impossible.😊️
I always remind people that shifting entrenched negative beliefs take time, which is why, self-improvement is a daily, life-long practice.
Some beliefs are so ingrained, they lie deep in your subconscious. The subconscious is the perfect hiding place for beliefs you thought were dealt with years ago, yet a single statement, a fragrance or a place can cause those beliefs to come racing back to the forefront of your mind, taking you by surprise.😱
Sometimes, you believe you are good enough, but old habits creep back in and it appears you are right back at square one. Negative ideas about your worth can run so deep, it's easy to behave as though they are a fact because it is the line of least resistance.
If you want to change the way you see yourself, it starts with creating positive new habits and re-writing misconceptions about who you are, and what is possible for you. 💐
#overcomedepression#overcomeanxiety #buildyourconfidence#believeinyourself #selflove#youmatter#mentalhealth #anxiety#stillstruggling#toughday #lovewhoyouare #selfworthmovement#findyourself #focusonyourself#youareenough #healyourself#healyoursoul #healyourlife#emotionalwellness
I have thought about this topic often, yet never in this exact way...But it is 100% true!!! No wonder like we feel like we have to do it all! But what REALLY gets me is that it is a TOTAL double standard when it comes to men! No one expects them to raise children as if they don't work! Oh no! That is a WOMAN'S work! 😠 Double standards and gender biases are getting REALLY old REALLY fast!
I guarantee that no one shames my husband for working, not one but, TWO jobs instead of being home with his son! Yet I still get judged for being a working mother with ONE job! Why do none of the household-running or child-rearing responsibilities fall on men??? It is 2019 for fuck's sake! More and more women are working outside of the home (mainly because most people can't survive on one income anymore), and more and more Dads are staying at home with the kids. And we are the ones who get unfairly judged and seen as either a lacking Mother who cares more about her career than her family, or a whipped Dad who clearly couldn't support his family financially and had no other choice but to stay home!
We need to start doing more to change these double standards/gender biases! And husbands and wives need to start working together more to be a TEAM, instead of two individuals who only take on the gender-normative roles of life! If Moms want to be ball-busting CEOs of Fortune 500 companies and Dads want to be loving caretakers/homemakers, more power to you all!
I'VE BEEN SELFISH. 😞
I could have helped and supported you years ago but I felt too ashamed to speak out.🤭
I've kept quiet for so long and pretended I've not been where you are now:
🔻losing the will to live
🔻struggling to stay motivated
🔻believing you'll never get your life back
I AM SORRY🙏🏾
The truth is;
🔻The world was grey, and no matter how bright the sun shone, everything remained monochrome.
🔻I lost contact with friends and became increasingly isolated.
🔻I felt lost, worthless and tried to take my own life.
I couldn't keep on living that way, so I created a formula that worked and helped me get my life back.
I didn't just survive, I persisted, broke through, and now live a life I once thought was impossible.
🌟 I've gone from hospitalisation to opening shops on the high street,
🌟 From 4 ½ stone overweight to a clean-eating practice that helps me to maintain a healthy weight, without sacrificing the food I love.
🌟 I used to dread waking up, now I appreciate every moment I am alive.
Does this sound like something you want for your life?🤔
I am doing some market research for my new programme by having a short 15 min phone conversation with a select number of people.
I’m pulling together everything that helped me get my life back and I really want to get it right.👍🏾
Are you willing to schedule a call with me?
If so, for those who are willing to help, and if you feel what I'm doing is right for you, you'll receive 30% off my mentoring programme as a big thank you. 🤗
Comment "Yes”, below or DM message me.
Feel free to tag and share this with anyone you feel this would be a good fit for you.
I would like to speak to 10 people by Thursday. 💐
#buildyourconfidence#believeinyourself #selflove#youmatter#mentalhealth #anxiety#stillstruggling#toughday #womensupportwomen#makeithappen #mindset#forgiveyourself #lovewhoyouare#findyourlifepurpose #beatdepression#lifebalance #selflovefirst#selfloveclub#selfloveproject #selfworthmovement#findyourself #focusonyourself#youareenough#youareworthy #healyoursoul#takecontrolofyourthoughts #overcomedepression
Spent the last 2 weeks hosting my missions friend/student from Poland 🇵🇱 It's amazing to be a part of her journey with God. Klaudia, Mam nadzieję, że wkrótce znowu się spotkamy 😄 #2yearslater#learningpolski#stillstruggling