It’s been almost a year and a half since I got a divorce. Divorce !!! I don’t even believe in divorce!!! Yet, here I am & it has been the darkest (and brightest) time in my life! I had a perfect life and a perfect little family that was ripped apart, literally ripped apart and left completely devastated. Please don’t get it twisted either, I don’t post things because of a man that I lost, those sad days are over. But it’s really about the kids, the loss of who I was as person & one thing that I lost & how I’ll never be the same any more, how I am raising two kids alone, how my step kids & 1/2 brother to my sons is no longer living in my home, a boy that I raised since he was 1 years old !! How I don’t have my dogs anymore. You don’t think about losing your dogs but it’s really a sad reality... there’s so much loss in a divorce... & I’m Sorry to paint a not so pretty picture but that’s life and how we deal with it is what truly matters. For me, I coped with the divorce in countless good ways!! I really tried to do good but I also coped in bad ways too, so many bad ways 😬Thank God that a week and a half ago was a pivotal weekend in my life & I’ve set some crazy goals to change some of the bad to good! ...I know that no matter how devastating life can be or how far we can fall, it’s about the climb back up! ....All the way up, nothing can stop me ❗️🙏🏼❤️ #fall#rise#motivated#divorce#grief#cope#right#way#family#kids#love
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise. - Maya Angelou
He is Raja, he is not JUST a #child but a #leader.
#ourvoix team first met him during the #workshop. After having a conversation with him, he was eager to take the responsibility of organising another workshop and teaching children about the same.
#A#Few days ago we received a call from him. He said Bhaiya,”I have organised a workshop for tomorrow, I have told all the children and parents to come!” When we went to visit the place, we sat in front of his house, giving knowledge to more than 40 children gathered by Raja. We were so happy to see him and the other children remember about their private parts and steps to prevent abuse!He is surely a true leader in spreading awareness!
We believe #Children are more than just CHILDREN! They have the potential to #Rise and #shine!
More power to leaders like Raja!
#together making #childhood#safe#again#leader
A huge thank you to United Indian Health Services and the Bear River Community in Northern California for having me as your keynote speaker today. Thank you for your hospitality and support. I am grateful! #Blessed#Prayer#IntentionalityCreatesReality#RISE
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If opportunity doesn't knock build a door🚪
Wenn die Chance nicht klopft bau eine Türe🚪
Yesterday I surprised myself. Had an early morning event to attend at the Palm after a four hour sleep and those of you who know me - I rely on public transport to travel. Managed to pack lunches, get Little M ready and leave home by 7:20am with a small sandwich to fuel me, I nearly made it there (okay may be 40 min late!). Feeling the Universe clap for me I thought I’d reward myself with some of the yummy brekkie. Won’t blame the food but in an hour my stomach started to churn while the insides of my head decided to thump. Knowing I was going to get unwell I left for home but wasn’t able to find any cab so I requested two ladies I saw at the event to drop me near the main road where I could get myself a cab easily. They were too sweet and asked where I was headed and decided to drop me near a metro station. I happily agreed while preventing myself from puking in the car. Thankfully the metro station wasn’t far and got off the car thanking them and wishing them well. But if you know dubai metro stations they require walking, a lot of it sometimes! (fully air conditioned thankfully). With two big bags to carry I dragged myself the fastest I could to the washroom. As expected I puked. Got myself together and started my journey back home somehow I boarded the train to get off after onestationagain to puke in the washroom and it happened twice! My stomach churned and I got painful cramps like never before. I straightaway called my hubby to drop me home. Somehow managing to reach the metro station nearest to his work, as I got down from the station I felt pukish for the nth time. I promised my body just bear 15 minutes more and the struggle would be over while it challenged me and the heat didn’t help either. Finally my knight arrived to rescue me but instead of being a graceful princess I was in a sorry state and reached for a polybag time and again on the way back this time thankfully in the car along with my partner in truly everything. I was surprised I made it through the toughest of time and dint pass out or started to sob in public. The thought you are stronger than you think holds true guys! But that wasn’t the end.... contd. in comments!
Today marks 2 years to the day of my very first photoshoot with @lancejones2k!
On the left is a look at that first shoot and the right is one of my fave images weve created together. Certainly come a long way since then! Modelling has become one of my most beloved passions and I'm do humbled by all the opportunities I've been given over the past 2 years. Its been an incredible journey!
Lance is a super talented photog and I'm so grateful for all the magic weve captured so far, and excited for what's to come! 📸❤ #throwback#journey#model#covermodel#transformation#workhard#rise#goals
you guys. the better part of today kicked my ass. i wanted to commit full on road-rage this morning on california(west seattle peeps) before my day even began. i was on my way to barre + got behind THE absolute s l o w e s t vehicle on the road. ever! i mean ever. so i cursed. and my zen went right out the window. barre class handed me a big helping of “you’re a weak looser” when typically it leaves me feeling totally empowered + fierce. then... i wanted my favorite curried chicken salad from PCC to refuel + guess what? they didn’t have it. nope. nada. nothing. boo! so i settled for plain chicken salad. ok. great. i got home. pulled into the driveway + went around the passenger side to grab my bags. low + behold, the gravel gave way beneath my feet and i slid halfway under the car, right on my booty, spilling coffee all over myself. yep. there you have it. so what’s my point? well — i went inside. took a hot bath. told myself to shake that shiz off + get it together. i put on a skirt + fixed my hair. added some make-up + viola! i mean, we all have those days + moments right? when we think we have just been defeated and all we want to do is wallow + hide. and sometimes — yes. that’s just what we need. but sometimes, sometimes you just gotta blow it up + blow it off. and take control of your own day. am i right? get it together. laugh. set up a date night with your love. fix your hair — better than usual. put on the pink lipstick + go outside! find that place that lives all the way inside you + breathe. let it go. find the beauty you have tucked away to fill your not so pretty spaces back up. over-fill them! i love the quote from john o’donahugh — “always keep something beautiful in your mind.” talking about times when you have to go back into those reserves to pull something out for yourself. so do that. find something beautiful + store it there. in your mind. now, i know this is way too long. and you’ve read this far, THANK YOU. i just really wanted to share this with you. our humanity is what makes us who we are. xo.c