Panic (or Anxiety) Attack Disorder is when we routinely experience episodes of high level anxiety usually brought on by worry. The emotional and physical symptoms can be significant and frightening, even feeling like a heart attack. PAD can be controlled and even overcome.
Currently I’m going through some rough times and I spent a good part of my night with my mind filled with “what if” thoughts. They pained my heart. Many had to deal with how people perceive me and my mental illness and how my mental illness has changed me. I’m not the person I was before Domestic Violence, PTSD, Anxiety or depression. I’m a shell of who I was. It makes people treat me differently. We need better education about mental health issues. #mentalhealthawareness#ptsd#anxiety#domesticviolence#stopdomesticviolence#endthestigma#panicattacks#insomnia
It has been an absolute blessing to be @oywthehague and being honoured to be a part of the Young Leaders Against Sexual Violence collective.
I think that @oneyoungworld has the most loving gathering of people. The most supportive, the most positive. In a world that has constantly shamed Sexual Violence victims, it is such a breath of fresh air to have young (and older) people walk up to me to embrace me, and thank me for sharing my story.
Nothing short of a blessing, and I'm forever humbled and grateful for AstraZeneca Young Health Programme 2018 for the scholarship to at #OYW2018
Will post 3 parts of the amazing video of the speech soon. #SafePlaceNg 💛👭
Thank you so much for all your kindness. I’m so sorry if I haven’t got back to your messages – I’ve been living moment to moment, riding everything from the “fuck it all, I deserve better” wave to “I want to give everything just for a chance to make it ok.” I never realised it was possible to go from feeling empowered, strong and independent, to pathetic, anxious and alone, in such a short space of time within the same day. But, I’m holding on. 💜 quote by @perrypoetry, illustration by @flowsofly.
Last week I had a really bad panic attack. It came out of no where but I was upset about something.
I won't go into major details but all I will say is growing up I always thought being anxious or feeling worried stressed etc were all normal things. I didn't know I had anxiety until a few years ago when a doctor told me they thought I was showing signs of it. I was shaking and crying in her office and hadn't slept properly in 3 days. Exhausted about my work and my job.
I am sharing this story with you because although I am now better at spotting the signs. I still have times were I feel overwhelmed and it gets a bit too much. Last Thursday was one of those days. This week has been alot better.
So many people think of me like this "Soma" in the photo and truth is 80% of the time I am her. In fact I like her alot more. Loving myself has been quite a journey even with anxiety but here I am. It doesn't control me I do.
I just wanted to share if you feel like you are doing too much just be kind to yourself and take time off. That's what I did.
Would love to know what you think in the comments below?
Like what I said I was going to do in my last post no more mrs. Nice ex-wife I'm done!!What I was going to right here was way too long so I did it on my notepad thing on my phone. And the first three photos were from July this year and yes he totally matches the one with the Pinocchio nose. And then the last two other photos off of my Snapchat are ones he never wanted me to share online. And I was trying to respect him still but now I'm learning I don't have to he never respected me or our child and made me permanently disabled so I'm just doing this now and no I'm not going to press charges on him because No One Believes Me Anyways. I just know God is going to handle it. And I'll just say also too you may see us have family photos together on here an I do the family photos for my son sake. So yeah this first photo when you read it is why I divorced my ex-husband and I can't cannot talk to him and or cut him off cold turkey because we do have a child and I do have to rely on him to drive me to like the grocery store and stuff because I can't drive and I don't have any friends where I live that could drive me anymore. I just wanted to let you all know why I divorced him I even told him tonight when he was saying all that crap to me that I was definitely going to let everybody know about him and he got all pissed and said really you're going to act like a bitch and tell them things that is none of their business!and he says before storming off tonight is you are a nut job an no man is ever going to put up with you like I did..aka a narcissist way of trying to make you doubt you're self worth etc.So yep here it is,An now hopefully you will understand me a bit more now an maybe understand why I act like I do..been hurt all my life..I don't need pitty etc just understanding an encouraging words.
⭐️ Is life difficult? Yes! Super. Super duper. Everyone deals with their own stuff. Some people struggle physically, some emotionally, some mentally- it can be anything! Today had good parts. And bad parts. Right now, I’m struggling. But hey! There’s always tomorrow. And I know it’s kind of silly, but right now the thing I’m focusing on to make me happy is my WEDDING! I’m not engaged. But maybe one day I will be. So I’m looking at dresses. And crowns. And imagining my makeup and hair and shoes. And that’s getting me to the next minute. ⭐️
So I say all of this to say: sometimes you just gotta take it minute by minute! Do Pearler Beads, make a coloring page, sew, go on a run- whatever your thing is. You can do it! Minute by minute. •
Wow that was one hell of a supportive, kickass, encouraging conversation on FB Live! Thank you everyone for joining and sharing your story.
Living with chronic pain or illness should NOT get in the way of having a fulfilling career. Tonight I shared the types of jobs that are flexible enough, what to stay away from, plus how to advocate for yourself in the hiring process and during your career.
I have two questions for my instagram peeps:
1. On this fb live I asked if it would be helpful if I created a checklist for you to know if a job opportunity is good for people living with chronic pain or dealing with mental illness. Now I’d like to ask here. Would that help you while looking for remote jobs? If yes, comment CHECKLIST below.
2. Are you willing to share a bit of what you struggle with here in the comments so we can continue this support and encouragement. The more we know, the better. If you are open to commenting, what pain, illness, or condition is currently getting in the way of your career and why?
Thanks guys. Tonight was one of those times when I am so grateful for my business. I’m getting to help a very deserving group of people! Love it 💕
PS- you can go to the Remote Like Me Facebook page and watch the replay whenever. I never take them down!
~Amba Traffic Jammin'~ 😃It's been a while since we had a #trafficjam Today's was Jam was brought to you 😁 by the letters... A..M..B & A! Lol. "Put It Down" by none other than @ambassador215#classic and timeless. *Sidenote: I had severe panic attacks from 2000-2001 and into early 2002. The Ambassador's "Christology" was one of two albums/tapes that I could listen to and got me through those those years. I couldn't sit and eat with my family, I could barely brush my teeth and almost never went outside to the house. Because of the #panicattacks it was the only tape I could listen to to call me down, and I wore the words off that tape. God is awesome. I had opportunity to meet him once and to thank him for his ministry.... #whitebeardandTheKid#mentalhealth#healing#trafficjammin#JesusISawesome
Anthony’s apple challenge got me curious to learn more about apples so I revisited the apple section in Life Changing Foods.
I know that apples are good for anxiety but I had forgotten just how amazing they are.
‘The phytochemicals in apples make them a true brain food, feeding neurons and increasing electrical activity.
Apples also have traces of flavonoids, rutin, and quercidin - phytochemicals that are responsible for heavy metal and radiation detoxification - as well as amino acids glutamine and serine, which help detoxify the brain of msg.’
We all know that hydration is important, but it is critical that people suffering with anxiety stay hydrated.
‘Apples are also hydrating on a deep, cellular level. They provide precious trace minerals such as manganese and molybdenum, as well as electrolytes and critical mineral salts that help the body rehydrate after exercise or stress of any kind.’
Time to up my apple game!
None of you can relate to this, I’m sure 😅... but I want to tell you something. If you’re an introvert like me, you’ve probably noticed that stress decreases your ability and/or desire to be around people. It just gets HARD, doesn’t it? And when you’ve got several children 👬👫 like I do .... well, you need a way to deal with this. We have a precious and very great promise that we’ve been “granted everything that pertains to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us.” ♥️ As believers, we rest in that, and we keep seeking Him through prayer, the reading of His word, and the fellowship of the saints. BUT we can also address stress physically! I happen to use a probiotic that has strains clinically demonstrated to reduce feelings of stress, anxiety, and even anger. Crazy? Kind of. But it’s the way we’re created: the gut is the second brain, and our emotions are far more affected than we realize by what’s going on in our digestive tract. This has been life-changing for me. 🌱 I have more info ... just let me know! #stressrelievers#stressmanagment#stressmanagement#stressrelieving#angermanagement#anxiousfornothing#anxiousmommy#socialanxiety#1peter1#panicattacks#introvertproblems#introvertlife#introverts#bestillmysoul#thelordisonthyside#tulipershouse
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I dont think I have ever been so stuck. I have never been so defeated and drained. It took me over a week to shower. It takes me all day just to eat. Everything takes so much energy from me. I can barely get through a day without trying to sleep as much as I can. I have never been so down, unmotivated, uninspired and having hope is way out of question. •
A huge reason is I'm convinced I'm never going to escape this trap I fell stuck in. Some family have instilled so hard into my brain and heart that I cant make it out there on my own. I am just going to fail miserably. I have zero confidence in myself. •
Today is a really bad day. Worst than most. So I just thought I would check in with all your beautiful souls. If anyone is out there struggling and who wants to give up and walk away....dont. I do not have all the answers but I know that healing and recovery takes serious time & effort. You've got to want it and even that won't be enough. You have to make it happen. That's the hardest lesson I'm currently learning. It's a tough one but I know I will come out on the other end stronger. •
If you are finding yourself frustrated, angry, scared or ready to give up the process please try to breathe. Try writing a list of everything you have accomplished. Talk to people about your recovery and where they have seen you grown. Take time to try and find ways to survive is what I'm getting at or trying to.
I promise I am still trying to figure out why this is all worth it. I still cant figure out why I cant jusr get my shit together. But I can tell you I have been told and do believe people when they say that I deserve it & I will be stronger and healthier one day. I'm just in miss process. I know I'm not the only one. •
So stay strong warriors. Use your tools. Reach out. Continue trying. You're worth it ♡