Feeling so very very BLESSED & beyond THANKFUL to God for a very supportive Husband ❤️ From Fireman to being the all around do what he needs to do to support the family & in helping others...He is also an entrepreneur & being his coordinator, assistant, reminding him to respond to all his business emails, messages 🤣... setting up appointments, events (Birthdays, Graduations to weddings) yes, busy days ... promoting his business Photoop of Hawaii by Dean Baldeviso... in turn he supports me in my Rodan+Fields Business & everything I do as a Nurse Case Manager...Thank you & Blessings to all including everyone on the Beautiful Island of Lanai 🌸 #Fireman#NurseCaseManager#Entrepreneurs#SoThankful#GratitudeAllAround#ThankingGodAlways#MercedesBenz#HeSaidGoPickACar 🥰
When I was 11 I had a girlfriend who was bulimic and anorexic. As an 11 year old, I was curious. We eventually started purging together, I remember staying the night at her house, binging and purging. I somehow stumbled onto pro-anorexia and pro-bulimia websites.. probably from google searching tips on how to puke easier. I ended up with a blog, as did thousands of other teenage girls, on my daily intake log of calories, my purging log as well as my exercise log. I would wake up in the middle of the night and do crunches. If you're unfamiliar with pro anorexia or probulimia.. it's a community where they PROMOTE and encourage women to starve themselves and purge constantly.
I ended up befriending a girl, and we were "ana buddies". Meaning we talked daily, calling each other fat cows and we would scream and yell at one another when one of us wanted to break our fast and eat. This girl and I lost contact years ago. Well we reconnected recently and I shared that I'm 100% recovered and happy with my job and boys and just really pretty blessed. She shared she still struggles.
Then my friend ana came creeping in.
She said, hey remember how THIN you were..
Remember your hip bones.
Remember how many crunches you could do in a minute.
Remember that time you went four days without eating and how much CONTROL you felt.
Remember how powerful and beautiful you were..
If you just restrict your calories to 1400..900 some days.. you'll still be in control. You can be in control this time.
That's how ana starts.
Ana is manipulative and lies to you to get you tricked in and before you know it, ana is in control. Ana tells you you're ugly and unworthy based off your number on the scale.
I've struggled a lot with these thoughts the last week or so. So I'm gonna keep pushing the thoughts out, eating healthy, working out because its GOOD for me, not as a punishment as ana would tell me I HAD to or I'd be worthless. Ladies you are ENOUGH. Whether you're 90 lbs or 350 lbs, I guarantee you've accomplished some.amazing shit in your life and that is what your worth is based off of.. Not the number on the scale 🖤
So it finally happened, I got a new job!!! My heart will forever and always be in the ER, but it was time to stop being an idiot and get a job where I wasn’t constantly pushing my body to its limits. Because of my increasing hip and knee instability, I’ve become more and more reliant on my forearm crutches and my wheelchair should be here in a month or two. I needed to move to a position where I could use my mobility aids as I needed. It was very VERY hard for me to admit that I am no longer physically able to continue full time in the ER. Working as an ER nurse has been my dream for a long, long time. I still remember the first time someone asked me what I did and I got to tell them “I’m an ER nurse.” I have absolutely loved getting to be the grounding force for so many patients on what to them, may have been the worst day of their life. It has been so incredibly hard to walk away from the ER, but it was the best decision I could make for my health. Now that I’m finally getting around to writing this post, I’ve been working as a Case Manager for about a month and I’m really enjoying myself! It’s a nice break from the constant go-go-go mentality from the ER. I’m enjoying getting to slow down and really meet my patients and see them through their stay in the hospital. Plus, being on a regular schedule has done WONDERS for my pain. I still have to force myself to sit down every time they call a code on my floor ;) Oh, and don’t y’all worry, I’m staying PRN in the ER. Can’t keep me away completely 😉
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This is real life folks. I spent the weekend studying for the CCM exam. My awesome hubby took the kids to visit Nana and Granddaddy yesterday so I could study. This pic was when the kids got back. 🤓It was hard to focus at times, but I knew in my heart I had to keep pursuing it. I’ve wanted to take this exam for years but wasn’t well enough to do so. After 4 years of Case Management/Care Management I truly believe this is where I’m suppose to be. Inpatient CM isn’t my favorite, but working from home empowering patients/clients is my jam! I LOVE what I do. Working from home for 3 years in yoga pants is a huge perk too. So guys, it took me 2 hours and 50 minutes to take the CCM exam today. There was a whole lot of adrenaline when I submitted the exam and.... I passed! I’m not even kidding when I say I prayed all through out the exam. Prior to the exam I kept praying for God to lead me to where I need to be. I still struggle with if I should take the leap and pursue health coaching full time. For now, I feel I’m suppose to continue my nursing job too. There both nursing jobs really. It’s all for the greater good. God is my boss at the end of the day and he is so good to me. I still cant believe I was well enough to study, retain the info, and PASS! That’s a huge accomplishment after having brain fog and all the other dreaded symptoms of Fibromyalgia. If your reading this and wondering how I completely healed look no further than @medicalmedium .
I’ll say I’m super proud of the certification, but what’s most important isn’t my education, diplomas or papers on the wall (even though I never hung any accomplishments on the wall). My story, my journey, my struggle, my truth is what speaks the loudest to help others. Your truth will do the same. Be you! .
Still taking a social medial break.. I’ll be back when I’m back health warriors. For health coaching consultations send me an email (link in my Bio) or DM me. 🤟🕊👩⚕️
New beginnings 🤗 today was such an amazing day I met some amazing people and I feel in my heart I made the right choice!!!!!!! Say hi to my new home❤️ #NURSECASEMANAGER 👩🏽⚕️🙌🏽 and also today is my 5th year anniversary of being a nurse 😬😝😝😎
This week we are highlighting case manager positions. A nurse who works in case management will develop, implement, and evaluate care plans for patients. They typically work closely with facilities and patient families to make sure that a treatment plan meets the physical, emotional, and economic needs of patients. We currently have 11 case management positions available. If you or someone you know is a nurse case manager, please DM your resume or submit it through the link in bio.