#nourishtoflourish photos & videos

Yes to pizza! // 🍕🍕🍕 // 22.02.19 ____________________________________________________ #foodisthebestmedicine #foodsthatheal #healingwithfood #healingmybody #healingfoods #comfortfood #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #foodforfuel #fuelforthebody #foodmatters #nourish #nourishment #nourishtoflourish #everymealcounts #forhealth #selfcare #patience #tws #pizza #pizzafriday #francomanca #fridaynights #soughdoughpizza #datenight @bozzgencer

0 1243 minutes ago

Left: a selfie in her wheelchair. She is too weak to walk. She just got admitted in the eating disorder healing program in the hospital. She is scared, malnourished and numb. Her heart beats at 26 beats per minute. She has destroyed her relationships. She gets anxious by thinking of food. Watching people eat brings her pleasure because she feels like she is better than them as she has more willpower for not eating. She is weak, yet the voices in her head are so strong. It’s day 1 of her recovery journey. Right: Luminous, she is glowing. Her thighs touch, yet her smile is beautiful. She has an essence of empathy and she has a dream of helping people. She is awake and she sleeps soundly; her bones no longer crushed by the mattress. She reads french literature, not nutritional labels. She hopes to speak Russian fluently one day. She loves to dance, but with her eyes closed. She does not hear, she listens. She learned to let go. The numbness has faded: she laughs, she cries, she feels. She is human. She is alive.

9 6846 minutes ago

SAY WHAAAAAAAA?!? I've moved a lot today, with a good lunchtime walk, a run at the gym, and the walk to and from the station... and I knew I needed to eat more than I had eaten. I've been craving ice cream for WEEKS and haven't been able to let myself buy it. I bought this (and just this - no more food for it to turn into a big binge) and ate it all. It was sweet and nutty and comforting. Obviously I feel guilty now, it WAS a lot of ice cream, and a lot more calories than I'm used to on TOP of my normal intake. But I did it. Because my body needs food. Because I want to fucking recover. And my tummy hurts now but this is what recovery looks like.

4 15an hour ago

Really delicious snack of a GU Salted Caramel Cheesecake😺 Today I had my appointment which was very beneficial/helpful and then body image group after. I felt so unwell this afternoon so just slept for a while before getting ready to do ballon modelling at a birthday party! I was quite nervous as it was my first time, but it went so well and everyone loved it! Also applied for a few more jobs, as while my current job pays really well, I have a lot of free time and I’d prefer to keep busy and earn a bit extra money too😉. Hope you’ve all had a fabulous day💕 #hopefromnomz #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery

2 46an hour ago

Shift your relationship with food to one that is rooted in nourishment and joy. . . . #liverrescue #mindbodygreen #healthybodyandmind #healthylifestyle #health #medicalmedium #nourish #nourishnotpunish #nourishyourself #nourishyourbody #nourishtoflourish #healthyself #resetyourbody

0 23an hour ago

Dinner of queens 👑 Spinach, green beans, plum tomatoes, broccoli, veggie chilli... followed by fresh mango, frozen berries, and choc shot 🍓 This was a tasty dinner after a good run - I didn't know the calorie total for my gym session because I caught my headphones and ended up hitting the emergency stop on the treadmill 🤦‍♀️ I knew how far I'd run, so I know I did 4.5km at usual pace, but I didn't have a total there on screen which was a BIG DEAL considering the magnitude of evening snack I was planning on having... 🍦🍦🍦

2 18an hour ago

Life’s all about balance, you know? Sometimes I eat salads and workout, other times I eat ice cream and watch Netflix. Neither makes me a “better” person. I’m still me💁🏻‍♀️ . Just wanted to pop by with that quick psa before I head off to set up for the gymnastics meet tomorrow. I’m technically on the team but tumbling was making my heart symptoms worse so I’m currently on a break until I go back to my doctors in the city. But, good news, I got an appointment with my doctor despite them having “no availability”. I guess it pays to know your med team😂

1 39an hour ago

What happens when you’re on vacation - but also studying for your 200 hour yoga teaching certification and your husband is already a yoga teacher...he helps you learn new poses in your hotel room! Hilarious! And helpful! Thank you @tomhudsonlive

6 21an hour ago

As a quick #snack after #dinner I had a costa fruit cooler! It was a mango one as they didn't have a berry one! Surprised I actually liked it as I don't usually like mango but this was quite nice but not as good as the berry one! Night everyone! #anorexia #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiarecovering #anorexiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #fuckana #fuckanorexia #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #food #foodporn #drink #costa #mango #slushy #fruit

2 12an hour ago

#dinner was a Nando's!!! I had 4 chicken thighs, garlic bread and chips! I also had ketchup! To drink I had a Fanta and 2 Diet Cokes! First Nando's in recovery and I loved it! Last time I had Nando's I had a salad which was disgusting and I would have definitely preferred what I had today! #anorexia #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiarecovering #anorexiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #fuckana #fuckanorexia #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #food #foodporn #fastfood #nandos #garlicbread #chips #fries #chicken

2 171 hours ago

These are the best rice crispy treats ever! #kelloggs #kelloggsricekrispietreats #ricekrispietreats #sweets #dessertisok #healthyliving #healthyeating #healthyliving #healthyfood #foodisfuel #acalorieisacalorie #nourishtoflourish #anawho #eatittobeatit #healthyfood #dessert #birthdaycakericekrispietreats @kellogs_official

1 111 hours ago

This was my SNACK. Sometimes our body needs more food than other days, sometimes less. I am choosing to listen to my body because my body is telling me to eat. Also shoutout to @larabaranowski_ for making me this ❤️❤️

2 671 hours ago

Who needs to leave some stuff behind? 🌸 Old mindsets Excuses Hurts Self made prisons Lies Guilt Condemnation 🌸 Replace with: Forgiveness Grace Rest Belief in your calling Knowing your value The Father’s love Power 🌸 Say it with me: I AM valuable, I AM loved, I AM forgiven , I AM focused, I AM beautiful, I AM powerful 🌸🌸🌸

1 91 hours ago

#afternoonsnack was a chocolate cookie and an oat & fruit cookie! I had these at my grandmas house! I also had some pineapple juice which was incredible! #anorexia #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiarecovering #anorexiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #fuckana #fuckanorexia #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #food #foodporn #cookie #cookies #chocolate

2 161 hours ago

Me n Lego Liz x #queen #legoqueen #hamleys #london #selfie #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #nourishtoflourish #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #bethebiggerbully #iamnot1in5 #mentalhealth

1 291 hours ago

5'3 gal stands next to a big train, looks about 3cm tall 😝 . . . #sciencemuseum #londonsciencemuseum #london #travel #city #photography #shortass #short #selfie #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexia #anarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #strongnotskinny #bethebiggerbully #iamnot1in5 #mentalhealth

1 611 hours ago

We're at the sea here in Belgium for a weekend and this was my dinner at the hotel!!💪 First I had (unpictured) a cheese croquette, then I had this big spring roll with veggies and as dessert I had ice cream.🍨 Didn't finish the ice cream completely but I still had half of it. ~ I've had a challenging afternoon with lots of ups and downs! But I will still enjoy this weekend and lot anorexia ruin it👊 ~ Keep fighting! #anorexianervosa #anorexia #ana #anorexiarecover #anorexiarecovery #recoverywin #recovery #happynothungry #healthynotskinny #beatana #eatittobeatit #eattonourish #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edfam #mentalillness #mentalhealth  #keepfighting #not1in5 #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #fuckoffana #food #fearfood #challenge #vegetarian

0 171 hours ago

. . . Do your kids love their after school smoothies too? This one is a Banana Berry Protein smoothie made with Build+ Protein Plus Recovery, frozen organic berry mix, banana and and coconut milk. So yummy! 😋🍓 . What’s your kid’s favorite smoothie? . afterschoolsnack #makeahealthychange #momlifebelike #smoothietime

2 152 hours ago

The amount of dry shampoo in this mane y'all 😂😂😂 Threw gold in the inner corner cause it's FRIDAY!! ❤️

2 182 hours ago

Love exploring and finding funky ways to decorate!

3 232 hours ago

So happy to be traveling! It’s nourishment for my soul, sacred family time and fuel for my love of adventure. 💕

1 222 hours ago

Lunch yesterday was just thrown together last minute so it’s not the prettiest 😂 but it’s roasted pesto veggies with chicken, and a cup of brown rice and quinoa mix 🍚🍛🥒🥕I had both sweet potato and rice mix omg 😮

2 542 hours ago

Dinner tonight was courtesy of @tescofood .... Their #tescofinest haddock risotto.... absolutely delicious Definitely my go to....Friday night....had a long week meal❤️❤️ My #eatingdisorder will often make me feel like what I eat has to be worth it....it has to be homemade and had a lot of effort put into it to be made worth it..... But that's not true ....we don't have to justify food in the slightest....we just have to enjoy it ❤️❤️ Microwave your dinners people....😁😁 #eatingdisorderrecovery #tescofinest #lazyfriday #beatana #sorrynotsorry #nourishtoflourish #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecovery

0 132 hours ago

today i’m struggling. it would have been so easy for me to skip all my meals and feel good about myself for it. i don’t want that for my life. my body needs food for functioning- and especially in order to keep myself from catching whatever’s going around the college right now. i don’t have to love that fact. but the LEAST i owe my body is what it needs to be physically healthy. yes, i’m recovered. yes, i still have a tiny ana voice. i know that recovery for me is learning how to quiet the voice rather than totally get rid of it. struggling isn’t a failure. it’s a part of my life that i embrace. it’s part of who i am. it’s taught me so much and i am grateful. 🥰 #recovery #likeforlike #lfl #nourishtoflourish #edfighter #bopo #bodypositivity #prorecovery #mentalhealth #anorexiarecovery #bodypositive #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #edwarrior #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #thickthighssavelives #organic #anarecovery #healthyeating #fuckana #selflove #anorexia #veganism #worthbeyondweight #vegan #instagramvsreality

1 322 hours ago

@lakodathegsd is the queen of balancing things on her head! 👑 Tag us using #holistichound to be featured on our next #FidoFriday!

1 273 hours ago

Lunch and afternoon snack from earlier - same salad, 2 salt and vinegar rice cakes, apple, alpen light. I had an argument with a dietician over the phone because she wasn't very understanding. It put me in a really awful mood but then we went for a really nice walk at lunchtime - found some horses, one of my colleagues got stuck in a bush, another in some mud, and we got very lost. It was really funny and lifted my mood bc my manager knows how to gently encourage me out of my anxiety. I'm so thankful for my job.

1 183 hours ago

Tried the M&S Plant Kitchen BBQ Jackfruit pizza! I must say, it’s so so tasty!!! 🌱🥗🍕 #vegan #edrecovery #anarecovery #challenged #foodisfuel #recoverywin #nourishtoflourish #eatingdisorder #feelthefear #loveyourself #selflove #bodypositive #treatyourself #beatana #calories #weightgain #acceptance #loveyourbody #behappy #breakfast #lunch #dinner #snacks #february #2018

0 313 hours ago

Earlier for breakfast. - When you’re having a lot of anxiety you still need to nourish your body!!! I know some days it can seem impossible to choke down your food but it’s still a necessity. Have a fabulous Friday! - - - - - - #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #recovery #edfam #realrecovery #recoverywin #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #strongnotskinny #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #foodpics #fooddiary #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #stopthestigma #eatingdisorderrecovery #bodyimage #bodyacceptance #anxiety #anxietyrecovery #depression #depressionrecovery #bipolar #bipolarrecovery

2 423 hours ago

Zin in een iets specialere latte machiato? Ga dan zeker eens langs bij @fleur_de_lee_gent & neem een plaatsje op hun voorverwarmd terras in de 🌞 nu het weer kan 🥰🤩 #belgium #ghent #9000 #insta #instadaily #food #drinks #foodblogger #specialcoffee #coffee #lattemacchiato #latteart #speculoos #foodporn #blog #blogger #sun #spring #coffeetime #nourish #nourishtoflourish #sweets #cookie #cake #funmoments #caffein #koffie #koffiebar #koffiepauze #gent

1 313 hours ago

⠀ Meal prepping for the week ahead might seem a little intimidating, but spending some time in the kitchen on Sunday makes the rest of the week run so much smoother...and you won’t be tempted to order take out by Wednesday 😉. I roast my veggies for the week, cook up a batch of quinoa, and always make sure I have seed milk, pestos, my favorite green soup and herb verdes ready to go! Swipe to see what I prepped this week, and let me know what’s on your menu in the comments!⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #CWChefAmber #CWCASelfLove #healthierchoices #mealprep #cleaneats #eatclean #eatgreen #holisticliving #mindfulness #nourishtoflourish #mindbodysoul #instafood #instagood #feedfeed #vegan #paleo #glutenfree #hermosabeach #southbay #fitfam #motivation #cleaneating #lifestyle #healthychoices #instahealth #nutrition #grow #picoftheday #inmykitchen #mealplan

6 593 hours ago

🚨 🍃✨GIVEAWAY✨🍃 . You guys!! It’s official!! We’ve hit 1,000 followers!!😭♥️🙌🏼 & as I promised, I’m putting together a giveaway!☺️🎁✨ . Let’s turn this Friday in to FriYAY🎉 To enter: 1) Make sure you’re following us @creaturesoaps on Insta 📲 2) Like this photo📸 3) Leave a comment about your favorite soapy bars, weekend plans, anything!☺️🙌🏼 & tag a friend👯‍♂️ 4) Tag multiple peeps on separate comments for multiple entries🎉👯‍♂️👬👯‍♀️👭👫🥰 5) Repost this picture for an additional 10 entries!😉🥳 (be sure to tag us @creaturesoaps & #creaturesoaps 🤗) . One lucky winner will win three full sized bars of soap & one of our decadent body butters, Shea Soufflé♥️🍃 . Winner will be announced Friday, March 1st!! So you have a whole week to get as many entries in as you’d like!🙌🏽🎁✨ . & just because I love you guys so much, if you’d like to switch out one of the giveaway bars for another fave that we have in stock, I’d be happy to make the switch!🥰 . Thank you guys for being so awesome & supportive of our little creations. We put our heart into every little creation & it’s a beautiful, humbling feeling to see you guys love it as much as we do. Thank you🙏🏼🥰 . (Mandatory disclaimer: US residents only. Giveaway is in no way endorsed or sponsored by IG. Just wanted to give some amazing soaps to amazing people in a way of saying thanks🥰✨ Giveaway will be closed at 11:59pm PST 2/28; good luck, peeps!!🙌🏼) . . . Ingredients🧚🏼‍♀️ *Organic Cocoa Butter✅ *Organic Shea Butter✅ *Organic Coconut Oil✅ *Organic Castor Oil✅ *Virgin Olive Oil✅ *Kaolin Clay✅ . #giveaway #soapgiveaway #luxury #brambleon #sandalwood #nourishtoflourish #loveyourself #selfcare #holistic #handmadeisbestmade #skincare #withlove #cpsoap #artisan #soapshare #organic #crueltyfree #shopsmall #creaturesoaps #cocoabutter #sheabutter #cocoabutter #vegan #sandiego #beautifulbastard #sandiegomade #palmoilfree #treatyourself

35 653 hours ago

💫Be T h a n k f u l for it ALL💫 . 💛Often times, our greatest struggles and bad experiences, create the greatest lessons and strengths in our life. . . Thanks to those experiences, we are who we are today! . 💛B A D A S S E S ! ! ! 💛 . . . #liveandlearn #balance #everythinghappensforareason #noregrets #experiences #badass #bethankful #healthyliving #dontwait #loveyourself #motivation #tgif #friyay #positivevibes #learn #rdtobe #vegan #plantbased #futureregistereddietitian #nutrition #healthyliving #nourishyourmind #nourishtoflourish #nourish

0 143 hours ago

went to a greek restaurant for lunch today and they actually had a vegan menu which i was pleasantly surprised by! I had falafel with tahini & a ‘no feta’ geek salad 🥗

2 344 hours ago

part of dinner!! roasted carrots, beets, broccoli and tempeh w lots of tahini & ketchup post picture 😋 tempeh is my LOVE omg. Also had a cheese toastie bc I love how melty violife goes omg, and then gonna have some cereal and ice cream this eve YAY food 🧡

2 134 hours ago

Made some banana and hazelnut bread yesterday as I had some v v v brown nanas, and what better way to use them up💁🏼‍♀️ It honestly saddens me that some people throw a banana away as soon as it gets slightly yellow, like I genuinely can’t eat them until they’re FULLY yellow or it just tastes soapy u know?? On a serious note though, food waste is something I really do try and avoid as much as possible! Whilst I’m at home I try and compost, as my parents have a load of compost bins for food waste, and I always do things like freezing loaves or bread, using up leftovers and making sure I plan my meals in advance to avoid buying too much. Baking a banana bread is also a pretty good outcome of avoiding waste as well😎 Has anyone else got any more tips for avoiding/minimising food waste? It’s a topic I feel v strongly about as it’s such a big but easily avoidable issue!🌱

8 1124 hours ago

One of the best smoothies I've ever made! 💚🌈 ___ If you haven't tried wild blueberry and papaya together.. it's really great! ___ I just added lemon greek yogurt and spring water with the fruit, and blended everything together 😍 · · · · · · · #eattherainbow #smoothielove #smoothie #eatmoreplants #fruitlover #guthealth #healingfoods #plantbased #livingfood #cleaneating #detoxify #eathealthy #realfood #healthyme #wellness #holisticnutrition #healthiswealth #healthandwellness #yummy #healthyfoodshare #eatwelllivewell #fitfoodie #nourishtoflourish #foodismedicine #rawfood

5 334 hours ago

I baked chocolate chip cookies (actually following the recipe rather than trying to use less sugar / butter / chocolate than the recipe called for!!) woooo! I had two for afternoon snack 🍪

5 595 hours ago

My lovely #fearfood (egg) breakfast from some days ago 😊. • ♡ • I'M GOING INPATIENT in two days 😧. I am really scared because it's my first time and I actually don't want to go. I'm doing it for my mum... I'm still not gaining and my mum is so worried about me (we have had a lot of fights because of it and she has cried two evenings straight). I am feeling so horrible, she is the most important person in my life 😔. She (also my other relatives) have wanted me to go about a month now and as my winter break started today I finally gave my consent... I will leave home at Sunday. It makes me very nervous... actually I feel like I am not ill enough. Like I eat quite alot (at least I think so) and I'm not THAT skinny. I'm also terribly nervous about the food there, I have heard that it's not the best and I'm even not shure if I can get vegetarian food (I just won't eat meat, I was a vegetarian long before my ED even started 😐)... and I just can't accept the idea that I can't choose what I eat by myself 😟 I have so so many fear foods that I am not ready to eat yet 😶. AND AS IT'S MY 17th BIRTHDAY NEXT WEEK, I HAVE TO SPEND IT THERE... PROBABLY ALONE 😢. The journey to the hospital is about 6 hours long 🙁 I'm quite sure that nobody won't visit me. Also I even don't know when I can get back home... hopefully after a week... I really wanna get back before the school starts. These are just some of my fears about going... • Sorry for so long and negative post... I just needed to talk to somebody about it 😔 • Hopefully you all are doing better than I am right now! 💞 • #edwarrior #eattobeatit #edrecovery #foodisfuel #nourishtoflourish #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery

2 215 hours ago

Be sure to look after yourself aswell as looking after others! . . . . . . #bloggingsgals #girlboss #discoverunder1k #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #ontheroadtorecovery #realrecovery #nourishtoflourish #recover #recoverywarrior #bestrong #selfcare #mindfulness #love #bekind #loveyourself #beyourself #compassion #behappy #effyourbeautystandards #kindnessmatters #loveyourbody

0 275 hours ago

Corned beef hash tonight for tea. Heading down to the Isle of Wight tonight for the weekend so posts will be a bit hit and miss from here.

1 295 hours ago

Mango Salsa 🥰 so delicious with the perfect amount of spice #mango #mangosalsa #salsa #delicious #jalapeno #spicy #nourishtoflourish

0 95 hours ago

ᖴᖇᎥƳᗩƳ ᐯᎥᗷᗴᔕ⁣ ⁣ Fingers crossed this beachbum can get some sun this weekend!⁣ ⁣ {w/ the big storms blowing through the last few weeks ~ it's been far from warm & sunny!}⁣ ⁣ Annnndddd you mayyyy catch me daydreaming, planning & packing for my Florida/Bahamas trip next month; visiting my fam & my team! {the countdown is ON!}⁣ ⁣ Teacher's salary would NEVER have made that a reality . . . helping others, in the pockets of my busy ass schedule . . . all things are possible & I am so so grateful!⁣ ⁣ *Thursdays are payday in our coaching world ~ so you better believe that bump in my bank account each week not only helps alleviate stress around filling up my gas tank, costco runs & target stops {bc let's be reeealllll} . . . it also provides me w/ a chance to do things that I love MORE liiiiiike travel & spend time with my fam!! duhhh!⁣ ⁣ ⁣ I don't have ⟁ғʀᴏᴍ ᴇxʜᴀᴜsᴛᴇᴅ ᴇᴅᴜᴄᴀᴛᴏʀ➳ᴇɴᴇʀɢɪᴢᴇᴅ ʜᴏʟɪsᴛɪᴄ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ ᴄᴏᴀᴄʜ|ʙɪᴢ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴏʀ in my bio for nothing!⁣ ⁣ Ooooya ➳ & btw ➳ if you're ready join me & my tribe on our mission to ᴀʟɪɢɴ + ɴᴏᴜʀɪsʜ + ғʟᴏᴜʀɪsʜ ᴍɪɴᴅ|ʙᴏᴅʏ|sᴏᴜʟ ➳ I've got a few spots open for the New Coach Training that launches on the 25th {links in bio or reach out! Don't wait-spots will fill!}

13 935 hours ago

Did you know that scientists "discovered that curcumin protected 72-hour sleep-deprived mice from the symptoms of sleep deprivation." Oh, our weekend plans? You're looking at them. (source: @huffpost) #aryaforlife

1 225 hours ago

Ieri sera non è andata come speravo. Mia sorella ha ricambiato a stento l'abbraccio che le ho dato quando ci siamo viste, e con mamma e papà ci siamo salutati con due baci, quasi fossimo a malapena conoscenti. Non perché non fossero contenti di vedermi, non credo. Ma percepivo una certa tensione e io stessa ero tesa come una corda di violino. Sapevo che prima o poi sarebbe arrivato il momento della cena e, come immaginavo, ha causato incomprensioni, malumori e probabilmente anche tanta delusione. In generale non avevo molto appettito, in più le circostanze mi hanno completamente tappato lo stomaco. Alla fine ho ripiegato su una paella di pesce divisa con mia mamma e mia sorella, ma non mi ha soddisfatta, né l'ho mangiata con serenità. Speravo potesse andare diversamente, che sarei riuscita a godermi i pasti fuori insieme a loro con la gioia di provare nuovi sapori e di condividere del tempo con le persone che più amo. Ma è evidente che non ne sono capace e che rischio di compromettere anche il loro livello di gradimento di questi pochi giorni da trascorrere con me. Io giuro che ci provo, che mi impegno, ma quando sono con loro il mio disturbo prende improvvisamente le sembianze di un cane da guardia svegliato dai ladri. E io non ho il coraggio di mettergli la museruola... [In foto il dolce che ho preso oggi dopo pranzo: yogurt greco con miele 🍯 e muesli. Ho assaggiato anche un pezzo della torta alle carote 🥕 che ha preso mia mamma: oggi per fortuna è andata meglio, ma vi racconterò in un altro post.]

2 275 hours ago

#FeatureFriday time! Another wonderful panelist, Elena Gaffney, for the upcoming NEDA Week panel! Wednesday, 2/27 in ISC 1127 at 7pm! - - Hi everybody! My name is Elena Gaffney, I am senior Government and Hispanic Studies major from New Rochelle, NY! I actually cannot contain how excited and grateful I am to return for my second year as a NEDA panelist. I began my recovery from anorexia in 2016, and although it has often been an uphill battle, I have so many amazing recovery warriors in my life who hold me up and keep me happy, and my mantra at the end of the day is: "I never want to go back." It feels so good to have made so much progress in my own recovery, and I am sooo happy that I now feel like I can share that passion to take care of and love your body with others at William and Mary. I am an avid distance runner, so a lot of my recovery has been focused on helping myself and others through compulsions to restrict and over-exercise- a big impetus for my recovery has been my faster and stronger workouts and races once I figured out how to fully and satisfyingly nourish and train my body!! Eating disorders are such a difficult thing to go through, and can be so isolating, so I always want to offer myself as a friend and resource- I'm so pumped to hang out and speak with the other AMAZING panelists for an evening of recovery and strength!!!

2 345 hours ago

SPOONS 🤪 Absolutely massive challenge of sweet chilli 🌶 halloumi wrap ( if you can call it that - whoever made this seriously needs to work on their wrap skills ) with chips 😎 which was DOUBLE the calories of my usual lunch may I add 🤭 - went into town to get some bits and had a rather productive day ! I got a load of skin care stuff as I really need to up my game with taking care of my skin 😅also got some concealer , some pen pal stuff and stamps and a little present for my stepdads birthday 🎁 just got home and my tea’s almost ready which I’m really not hungry for tbh but need to have it now cause my mum goes to work and Calum’s also working. After tea I’m probably just going to relax , maybe do some coursework and then do a skin care routine and pen pal stuff 🥰 got to keep myself distracted on Fridays seeing as I spend them on my lonesome * plays violin * 🎻 hope you all have a nice evening ❤️

7 895 hours ago

Give yourself grace, but don’t give yourself excuses. There is a huge difference between “yeah I ate poorly/skipped my workout today. That’s okay, life happens, I’m human and will make better choices next time” And “I ate poorly today because xyz happened and sally yelled at me and my roommate/mom/husband wanted pizza, so I didn’t have a choice.” The difference is taking ownership of your behavior. If you constantly blame your poor eating habits on other people/circumstances, you won’t make that change because it’s “not yours to make.” . . By all means, don’t beat yourself up for “falling off track” (bc it’s literally just food and humans like food). But accept personal responsibility for your actions. Unless you are two years old, no one is forcing unhealthy food into your mouth. That is entirely on you. Once you own it, you take back control and have the ability to make those good choices that will lead you to your goals. . . . #ownership #eatresponsibly #eatwellbewell #nourishtoflourish #foodisfuel #accountabilitycoach #accountability #fitlifestyle #takecontrol #takebackyourhealth #fitnessmotivation #mindsetreset #california #trackandfield #beachbody #bgbb #bgbbkickstart

3 915 hours ago

quick little lunch to get the weekend going açaí courtesy of @motherjuice blended with yogurt to make it creamy. topped with banana, almond butter, @purely_elizabeth granola and coconut flakes! HAPPY WEEKEND!

6 606 hours ago

And that's the end of another week! We hope you have all got some well deserved self care pencilled in for the weekend! 🌱 #selfcare #nourishtoflourish #treatyourself #selflove #selfcompassion #women #empowerment #feminism #weekendvibes

0 26 hours ago

So so happy with how this special turned out! The crispy-ness on this tempeh is near perfect.👌🏼 Lemon Pepper Tempeh Bowl 💛🌱✨ (mixed greens, whole grains, carrots, beets, and crispy lemon pepper tempeh; topped with pepitas, hemp seeds + avocado)

5 366 hours ago

HOW MY SH*TTY WEEK IS FORCING ME TO REVIVE MY HEALTH ROUTINE: . I have been struggling to show up online and for good reason. I need to take time off to focus on the health of a family member--which I am still hoping and praying is nothing serious. . On top of it all, when it rains, it pours & the last 7 days has been a hail sh*t show. . Forgive me for falling out of my sunshine & rainbows character BUT today I want to let you know that my life is not just a highlight reel. . Because of this last week, all I can do is study up on certain health conditions that might be responsible for my son’s abnormal blood work, sleep & eat like CRAP! . My family has kept reminding me to take care of myself and I have been easing into a routine. . If you have been following me for a while, you know that I THRIVE off of a solid morning routine as well as a pretty flexible (but always present) evening routine. . I have finally forced myself not to skip out on my routine but now it is time to return to my healthy eating & exercise schedule. . I strongly believe that neglecting my health has been the #1 reason why my body is responding with lethargy, headaches, weird cravings and negative emotions. . If you find yourself in a similar situation, try to course correct as soon as possible. It is SO important to practice self-care not only to prevent burnout but to also recover from falling into a low place! . So instead of creating value & coming at you with tips & pointers, I am asking for you to help hold me accountable. . Sometimes even coaches need a little nudge in the right direction! . Double tap and comment “I FEEL YA GIRLFRIEND” in the comments if you know where I am coming from!

12 386 hours ago

Simple nightsnack yesterday. 🍅 and some slices 🧀. Strange?! No. Michelle never was a sweet mouth but i like cheese. Dont understand me wrong sometimes i really like icecream but when i could choose i always take some milkproducts 🤗 today is a day ful of challanges. Its hand then i gained a lot. But i have to go on. After work my grandparents visit me for the first time in my new flat. So i made a litte coffee and cake. Now im dressing myself up because im going to a real pizzeria with my love. 🍕 I also really happy for a cooperation with @handyseal #eatingdisorderrecovery #followforfollow #handyseal #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexiarecovery #happy #mentalhealth #health #fitness #cleaneating #nourishtoflourish #foodporn #recovery #clean #foodie #veggie #food #wellness #fashion #beauty #plantbased #cleaneats #myprotein #weightloss #foodblogger #vegan #healthyrecipe #you

22 1806 hours ago

Siracha honey cheese on a bagel ~ . . . . . #anorexiarecovery #beatanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #edsoldier #edfam #edfighter #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverforlife #eatittobeatit #keepfighting #anafighter #beatana #nourishtoflourish #anawho #edrecovery #anarecovery #edwarrior #anawarrior #neda #prorecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #bodypositive #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny

0 226 hours ago

Let’s have some lunch... Pasture raised eggs topped with salmon eggs, dill and kelp. Organic Jalapeños, locally sourced raw pepper jack cheese and homemade sauerkraut. Let’s not forget the smoothie to wash it down...organic Kefir, bee pollen, flaxseed, boron water, banana, cinnamon, #teraswhey protein powder...yum! #wapf #notvegan #nourishingtraditions #eattonourish

1 256 hours ago

Don’t stop doing the work.. Don’t give on your dreams.. Don’t worry about what’s on the other side.. Water the grass where you are.. Tend to your seeds and garden and watch it grow.. Take care of yourself, make self a priority!!

4 246 hours ago

This was on November 28th. I had just filled an ENTIRE jar of recovery wins. Shortly after this I hit my limit and it’s just been a slow and subtle relapse since then :-( BUT. It won’t last forever. I’ve struggled with being incredibly stubborn and willful but it is partly due to my immense stress about starting treatment. And I REFUSE to let this continue on when I do start because I am incredibly lucky to have the opportunity I do and insurance coverage I do, and have so much support on my side to fight this thing. I WILL fight this thing. I started recovery 6 years ago at the same center and it is crazy how much has changed. Back then I was just a kid. I knew so little about my eating disorder and so, so many things were still yet to come. So much pain and so many self discoveries. So much healing and so many realizations!!! I’ve found my passion and I want to grow up to help people like me find their recovery and make peace with food. But how can I do that when I can’t even do it for myself? How can I go to UC Davis when I am so preoccupied with losing weight and counting calories? How can I become a mother or a good spouse or a good friend? Do I REALLY want to lose 6 more years??? NOPE. NOPE NOPE NOPE BECAUSE THEN I’LL BE 26 AND THAT IS NOT OKAY. So here I go. I’m going to eat all the food to the best of my ability and challenge my fear foods and food rules and be incredibly UNCOMFORTABLE but incredibly STRONG. In the meantime...I had 1 cup of dry cereal for breakfast :-( I have to work for almost 5 hours this morning which I am not looking forward to but such is life! I have only two days of work left and I really don’t like it but I will get through. I will be totally not an anxious mess :-) GO ME!!!!! #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #edrecovery #nourishtoflourish #realrecovery #anorexiarecovery

0 106 hours ago

🌱☀️ #nourishtoflourish #selflove #drinkmorewater #getoutside #sunlight #selfcareisntselfish

0 156 hours ago

Afternoon snack to hopefully get me through some compulsory reading 😴 I swear I'm so damn exhausted so a mug of green tea and the usual protein bar it is. I have less than 50 pages to study though so that's nice🙋 #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edcommunity #thisisrecovery #mentalhealth #stopthestigma #thisorhospital #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #nourishyourbody #prorecovery #ana #anarecovery #vegetarian #vegetarianmeals #balanceiskey #veggiegirl #foodisfuel #gettingstronger #alive

0 176 hours ago

Kicking off the weekend with avo toast and strawberries! I’m super excited because my mom is coming to visit and I’m watching some of my teammates compete at conferences. My injuries are finally getting better and I’m looking forward to running more for out outdoor track season. Happy Friday Friends!

8 576 hours ago

Being *alone*. ⠀ ⠀ It’s likely that those two words spark an emotion in you. If you’re a self-lovin’ introvert, those words may sound like heaven, but I would guess a majority of people view “being alone” as a negative and undesirable situation. ⠀ ⠀ The reality is - We feel loneliness for a number of reasons, two of them being 1) An overwhelming desire to connect with others and 2) An inability to be comfortable with self. ⠀ ⠀ Regardless which camp you may fall in (or a hybrid of both), this week on the pod, I sounds off on exactly what you can do to bust through the loneliness you feel, reclaim your personal power, and create amazing, rich connections in your life.⠀ _________________________________________ ⠀ ⠀⠀ Link in bio or find us on iTunes or your fav ⠀ podcast app or visit TheJoyJunkie.com/288 _________________________________________⠀ #thejoyjunkie #podcast #heartache #lifechanges #excitedmuch #UpNout #selfcare #wildandfree #MindyKaling #livewithintention #limitless #briantracy #thrive #healthylifehappylife #wildthing #nourishtoflourish

0 116 hours ago

BRAIN FOOD . I've been exploring the topic of brain food for the last few months. . Why? . Because I've spend the last four years learning about traditional Chinese medicine acupuncture and studying for my board exams. I've also wanted to be able to support my body and my mind as much as I can through this process and afterwards too. . No matter the reason, our brain health is incredibly important. . Did you know that there is one super easy thing you can do to improve your cognitive function (this includes: memory, focus, concentration, attention span, reasoning, etc.)? . Drink water! . Yup, water. Pretty easy right? . Did you know that the brain is 80% water? This surprised me. I knew that it was made up of a lot of water, but 80%?!?! WOW! . This is why dehydration can be such an issue and has so many symptoms that are linked with the brain and neurological issues - dizziness, headaches, fatigue, confusion, memory lapses, difficulty concentrating, etc. . Did you know that many people experience some or many of these symptoms with just a 2-4% drop in optimal hydration? . Dr. Lisa Mosconi did an interesting interview with Jim Kwik all about this (link in bio + here: www.bit.ly/Kwikbrainfood). . @dr_mosconi and Chinese medicine both agree that warm water is best for hydrating quickly rather than cold water. . Why? . Warm water is vasodilating (meaning that it helps to widen the our blood vessels) and cold water is vasoconstricting (meaning that it narrows our blood vessels). . When our blood vessels are widened (vasodilated), it allows our bodies to more easily absorb nutrients and fluids; thus helping us to rehydrate quickly and effectively! . How cool is that?!? . I'd love to hear your thoughts on this and on the interview if you watch it! Drop me a line in the comments below. I'm off to refill my water glass. 😉 . Post: Andrea Photo Credit: Rawpixel

1 227 hours ago

There’s so much going on in our day-to-day lives that we tend to ignore when our body is trying to tell us something. If you experience extreme tiredness, or you are constantly battling headaches, it may be something more than just “not enough rest”. Listen to your body and educate yourself on your everyday symptoms. Choose to feel great! 😎 #wholefoodiron #neuterre . . . . #active #livinglife #hustle #livefit #livingthedream #healthybodyhealthymind #plantbaseddiet #glutenfree #foodie #workinprogress #personalgrowth #goodvibesonly #motivation #nourishtoflourish

1 127 hours ago

. ACCEPTANCE Oh, the true beast of recovery . Throughout this journey Your body will change Quitting exercise will likely cause you to lose your fitness And your days of being the fittest or smallest in the room may come to an end . It'll be hard for you not to be spiteful & jealous of the other girls Who get to be thin & workout & still have their periods Who get to do what's killing you Without the consequences...or so it seems . Accepting your body in every form it takes Is not an easy task Especially when what you see in the mirror is a distorted version of reality . The bloated recovery belly Edema Puffy face Undefined midsection And overall loss of muscle tone Will often make you question what the hell you're doing . You'll want to give up at times When you look in the mirror & start crying As your mind goes on a rampage of spewing hurtful thoughts . You'll think you're not sick enough That you've made a huge mistake And that youre stupid for thinking you ever needed help . But that's when you've got to look yourself in the eyes And tell the woman inside That you love & accept HER Just the way she is And that you're doing this for HER Because SHE matters And she is VALUABLE Regardless of the shell she lives within . You may feel like a liar at first But eventually you'll start to believe your heart over your mind As you discover that true happiness really does come from accepting Who you are Where you're at And what you have In every given moment . And that true beauty cannot be defined by a number As easily as it can by the feeling Of being completely ALIVE After being "just barely" for so long . Acceptance in recovery is hard It really is You've got to accept that you've gotten yourself here And that it has to be you who gets you out . You've got to accept that it's not going to be easy But that there truly is no other choice Because gaining weight is not the end of the world But dying from your eating disorder IS . You've got this Warrior I believe in you ❤ Xoxo Breh

6 597 hours ago

My first time having a pint party with a tub that has over 400 cals!!😁 I don’t like sorbets at all so the black currant part wasn’t for me, but the cheesecake part was a dream 🥰🥰 . . . . . . #marksandspencer #cheesecake #dessert #icecream #pintparty #sorbet #blackcurrant #fearfood #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #nourishtoflourish #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #healthyfood #healthy #food #foodblog #foodjournal #recoveryisworthit #edrecovery #edwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalillness #orthorexia #bulimia #strongnotskinny #delicious #edrecovery #edfighter

0 667 hours ago

Be afraid and do it anyway👊🏼 you got this. You can be afraid and still do something.

1 987 hours ago

Gooood morning and happy leg day! Stove top gf oats with blueberries, @baseculture maple almond butter, and 1 tsp @omg_superfoods maca and ashwagandha powders 🌻 when I was recovering, I tried to educate myself on holistic nutrition as much as possible because I wanted to be comfortable putting things into my body, and avoiding medication at all costs. I came across adaptogens and they were something I incorporated into my diet in order to restore physiological balance. Maca is a root (taken in either powder/capsule) that increases, mood, libido and fertility, learning and memory, and energy levels. Ashwagandha reduces symptoms of anxiety and depression, has tumor suppressing properties, and may also increase fertility. Both are said to decrease cortisol levels and fight free radicals, controlling inflammatory responses and making you healthier overall. Along with the variety of benefits adaptogens have on the body, it is worth mentioning that I used these as SUPPLEMENTS, along with gaining the weight I needed to restore my health. Even though I’m at a healthy weight today, I still take adaptogens from time to time to maintain my well being 😇 hope everyone has a great Friday!!

7 837 hours ago

Good Morning!! 😊☀ ___ Yesterday, I had the chance to sleep in with Lyla until 10 for a change.. it was marvelous! Today, is the complete opposite! Up early.. nothing but tantrums and hellfire. Funny how everything has a way of keeping itself balanced............. wtf man! 😫 ___ I have a feeling a good breakfast is going to come in handy today. I gotta find a way to deal with her, and do a big clean up as well.. Let the games begins! ✌ · · · · · · · #momlife #terribletwos #lifewithkids #toddlermom #eatyourveggies #foodshare #healthiswealth #healthybreakfast #wellness #eattherainbow #sahmlife #momproblems #nutrition #eatwell #fuelyourbody #healthyish #eatrealfood #yummy #igfood #healthyfoodie #fitfoodie #healthychoices #foody #forkyeah #healthyfoodshare #nourishtoflourish

0 407 hours ago

That magic green juice || Forming habits takes time and that’s the same with liking new foods. . I started my daughter on a small cup of pure celery juice every morning. It’s been about two months and she’ll sometimes ask for a glass of juice. But if she doesn’t I just give her a small one. . Change doesn’t happen overnight but you can certainly walk in the right direction. . . . . #cleanse #detox #reset #plantbased #nutrition #nourishtoflourish #nutritionists #nutritionconsultant #vegetarian #health #wellness #wellbeing #fooddelivery #kl #7daycleanse #plantpowercleanse #7dayplantcleanse #celery #celeryjuice #celeryjuicebenefits

0 137 hours ago

You begin to realise how much you over indulged. How many dishes are prepared for a dinner meal? How about just a bowl of scrumptious soup seasoned with herbs and spices? . . . . . #cleanse #detox #reset #plantbased #nutrition #nourishtoflourish #nutritionists #nutritionconsultant #vegetarian #health #wellness #wellbeing #fooddelivery #kl #7daycleanse #plantpowercleanse #7dayplantcleanse #itsaboutbalance #dietfree #dontcountcalories #soup #pumpkinsoup

0 127 hours ago

To infuse or not to infuse- what do you prefer? . . . . . #infusedwater #infuseddrink #detox #teatox #detoxdrink #tonedtea #nomnomnom #healthy #healthyliving #fitness #fitnesscommunity #weightloss #weightlosscommunity #fitwomen #healthinspo #nourishtoflourish #fitrecipes

2 217 hours ago

EVERYDAY // practice the Self love lovely 💓♥️💓 . Gentle reminder @spiritualcreative 🙏🏼🌷✨ . #loveyourselfenough #nourishtoflourish #healthyandhappy #youareamazing #soulshine

7 7552 days ago

What my dinner looked like before I dumped it all in a Tupperware for class tonight 🤣 This past week week has been a whirlwind, but I feel like I’m finally in my routine for school this semester 📚 Some habits that have been saving me time and sanity include: ✨ My @kait.hurley workouts at home in the am ✨ Meal prepping on Sunday or Monday. This week I made soup, sweet potatoes, chicken and salmon 🙌🏼 ✨ Staying in one weekend night so I feel refreshed for studying the next day ✨ Staying hydrated! Such an underrated but vital habit when we’re busy! 💦 🍽 Dinner dEats: roasted sweet potatoes, arugula, leftover salmon, half an avocado, @edenworksgrows microgreens, and a sprinkle of hemp seeds 🌿 Happy Friday Eve! #nutritionsqueezed #buddhabowl

82 492yesterday

Loaded vegan BRUNCH! 🌱👌🏼 Tofu scramble with creamy avocado lime toasts. (The recipe is on my blog) This is my favourite savoury breakfast ever, it’s so tasty and filling and it makes the perfect weekend brunch if I’m not having sweet pancakes 😅!! - The weather has been so fine lately! Today I was able to leave my coat at home and go out for a walk. ☀️ going outside for some fresh air really improves my mood! Happy Friday! 🤗 . . . . . #veganbreakfast #savourybreakfast #veganuk #whatveganseat #nourishtoflourish #healthyfood #veganfoodshare #veganfood #veganfooduk #healthyeats #whatsonmyplate #plantbased #healthylifestyle #plantprotein #veganrecipes #veganfood #veganmeals

173 9858 hours ago

Happy Wednesday! This was lunch today and pretty much everyday at the moment, I think I’m obsessed with roasted chickpeas 😂 but I really enjoy bowls like this, because they’re so versatile, they’re always super satisfying and tasty to me. They just make me feel so good on the inside and so happy and energised! 🌱 I always cook too much broccoli and chickpeas that they don’t fit on my plate, so I eat pretty much another mini bowl after the photo 😂 , the more the better I say 🙌🏼 have a good Weds ppl! 💛 . . . In my bowl: Roasted Curried Chickpeas + Quinoa & bulgar wheat + steamed sweet potato + steamed broccoli + cherry tomatoes + avocado + hummus in the middle + a bunch of spinach underneath 🌱 . . . . #vegan #veganuk #veganfood #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat #veganbowl #nourishbowl #plantpower #nourishtoflourish #plantbased #buddhabowl #eatmoreplants #avocado #chickpeas #veggies #healthy #healthyfood #healthylifestyle #balanceddiet #edrecovery #smartphonephotography #foodphotography #foodstyling #eatwellbewell

289 31294:21 PM Feb 6, 2019

Hello new week, and hello STICKY SWEET TOFU with stir fry broccoli & mushrooms served with brown rice! 💛 - The recipe for the sweet sticky tofu is on my blog if you wanna give it a go! 😋 apparently it’s going to snow in the UK this week, and I’m kinda excited ⛄️❄️ . . . Btw, I’m currently working on some recipes for my blog, so if you have any recipe requests, comment below👇🏼 to give me some ideas and I’ll see what I can do 💛 thank you, have a lovely Monday evening! . . . #veganuary2019 #veganuary #buddhabowl #nourishbowl #tofu #stirfry #stickytofu #veggies #vegetables #plantprotein #plantpower #plantbaseddiet #vegan #veganism #healthyvegan #veganuk #nourishtoflourish #nourishyourbody #vegansofig #veganfoodie #veganfood #veganfoodshare #foodphotography #smartphonephotography #foodiesofinstagram #healthy #healthyfood #healthylifestyle @thrivemags @veganfoodspace @bestofvegan @thefeedfeed.vegan

260 29906:56 PM Jan 28, 2019

It’s starting to get light in the mornings and I’m so grateful 🙈 - It’s finally the last week of term before a week off school!! I’ve reached this state of pure exhaustion and I’m just so happy to be able to get some revision done in the comfort of my own home without having to get up super early 😂 Things are starting to get very real + scary with regards to a levels. Mocks are coming up in four months and I’ll be sitting my actual exams in just over a year and the thought of it is absolutely terrifying 🙈 The stress feels like a complete repeat of GCSEs and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to go through all of that again 🙃 Thinking about ucas + personal statements etc I’ve also reached a point where I’m questioning all my career choices 😂 all the courses I thought I wanted to do since years ago suddenly seem unappealing. To those of you who’ve applied to a course at uni, how did you decide that it was the right one for you? I’m honestly overthinking this so much and it’s making my brain hurt 😂 I’ll stop rambling sorry. Hope you all have a lovely week 💓 - #veganbowl #nourishtoflourish #edrecovery #recovery #veganrecipes #veganfood #vegan #veganbreakfast #oatmeal

46 18437:49 AM Feb 11, 2019

Happy Friday!!! 🙌🏼 Here’s my FRYDAY bowl - Crispy Baked crinkle cut red tatooos + Homemade Moroccan Falafels + cucumber + steamed carrots & broccoli + Hummus in the middle 😋 (you can find my Moroccan Falafels recipe on my blog)!!! . . Today was so beautiful ☀️ it’s starting to get lighter in the mornings and evenings now, I’m super excited for spring! 🌷it’s my favourite season! What’s your favourite season? . . . #vegan #veganbowl #buddhabowl #potatoes #falafels #whatveganseats #fryday #foodstyling #veggies #foodphotography #vegandelicious #nourishbowl #smartphonephotography #veganfoodshare #veganuary #veganfoodie #healthyfood #healthylifestyle #healthymeals #nourishtoflourish #edrecovery

219 15466:06 PM Feb 15, 2019

So thankful there was half decent lighting for once 😂 - As promised, here’s a very overdue update on how things are going at the moment 🙈 Something very big happened last week and lots of people wanted to hear more about it. I went to camhs for the first time in 2 months just to say thank you to my therapist who’s going on maternity leave. One thing that surprised me loads was that I was able to maintain my weight in those two months without seeing anyone!! It goes to show that your body knows what to do with the extra food you eat over the holidays and that nourishing yourself isn’t going to have terrible consequences hehe 😉 Listening to your body is truly the best thing you can do. Okay, I’m stalling now because that wasn’t the main thing I wanted to say 😂 Basically, on Wednesday, I successfully discharged myself from therapy for reasons I’m not going to go into detail here. Although terrified is an understatement for how I feel right now, giving up my spot in therapy will allow someone else to get the support and care they truly need + deserve. There’s no point in me trying to do therapy if I can’t fully commit at the moment. For the time being though, I’m going to do my best to support myself on my own at home. Since I’ve been with camhs over 6 and a half years, I’ve learned lots of techniques and skills to keep myself safe so I’m sure I’ll be fine without them. It’s about time I let someone else get some help since the nhs is under a lot of pressure all the time 🧡 Physically though, I’ve agreed to have obs done every month so it puts my parents’ minds at rest a little. So until I get sixth form out of the way, I’ve decided that recovering at home is going to be the best thing for everyone at the moment. So here’s to a new chapter in this whole recovery thing. Being completely free from doctors + therapists will finally give me the chance to try and beat this by myself. Don’t worry, I won’t let anorexia win. We’ve got this 💗💗💗 - #edrecovery #veganuary #veganbowl #nourishtoflourish #vegan #veganrecipes #veganfood #recovery

67 22848:33 AM Feb 3, 2019

when i woke up this morning, i contemplated eating my breakfast. i remember what i would eat back then and compared it to now, glamorised reminiscing at its finest; gawping at tiny portions and drooling at the possibility of visible bones. - then, i remembered that i didn’t feel the heat of a porridge bowl back them, or the hold of my lover’s arms. there may have been a gap between my thighs like islands separated by earthquakes but now they’ve conjoined by mental and physical bridges that i forced myself to form. now i have to eat: i don’t rely on a flood of liquid through a tube rather the chewing and swelling in my own mouth; sometimes, the taste of regret arises from my stomach like the rich scent of hospital-cooked bread and butter pudding but my soul rises yet stronger. - i’m not afraid to say i often miss my disorder. not in a loving, grand way, rather in the way one misses an ex: you want them back at times, but you know they’re no good for you. yet, when they return, knees plastered against the pavement of your mind you torture yourself to go through their bullshit again. well? i’m done with the bullshit. - i will never return to the calorie calculator buried within coffins in my body; i will not feel my hair crumble into my palms like bricks of a forgotten building: for i was not built to be forgotten. and, as long as i fight, i never fucking will be. - “breakfast” : a poem by me. ♥️

65 14056:31 PM Feb 13, 2019