Browsing through my old photos reminds me of all the beautiful moments that are out there waiting for me. ❤️ .
I’m back from a little space I needed to deal with some things. Without getting too specific, I’ve spent the last few weeks mourning a couple different types of losses from different areas of my life, so I’ve been focusing on being productive and healing.
Social media is curated with messages to emphasize positivity with statements like “good vibes only”. What I don’t see often are some of the very real struggles we go through. It can create a rough place to exist in when you’re dealing with life.
I make a concerted effort to focus on being a positive person and to focus on the good things in my life because I spent so much of it letting a mountain of negatives weigh me down and making me an unpleasant person to be around.
We are often expected to walk through life with smiles plastered on our faces, whether they’re genuine or not. I’m not here to tell you not to spread joy - as someone who lives with anxiety and depression, celebrating the positives in my life is what gets me through most days, but we need to change our relationship with our negatives.
I think it’s important to allow yourself to sit with them for a while when they show up and acknowledge them, but then we have two choices in moving forward: 1) let whatever pain and anguish you are feeling bury you and takeover your life and even ruin it for some people, or 2) let the pain fuel you to push harder to become the person you want to be, and get closer to the life that you want to have.
I think we all carry an ocean of pain with us comprised of different ingredients like anger, grief, and a large menu of insecurities. What defines each one of us is how we carry it and what we do with it. I’ve been learning how to use my pain - all my insecurities, anger, fear, regret. I’m not ashamed or embarrassed by them - they are what makes me human. I don’t choose to hide them away and ignore their existence. Instead I choose to use them as motivators while I craft the life that I am daring to strive for and I hope that you do too.
Good luck out there.
My @canonusa Rebel T5 has been my main (only) DSLR camera and workhorse since I really got into photography in fall of 2015. It has been everywhere with me, including the other side of the world and across the country.
I’m super grateful for it, but I figured it was about time to upgrade… excited to be shooting with the 6D Mark II from now on!
Growing up in the East Bay, going into the city was a straight-up adventure that involved riding a BART train through a tube that tunnels under the San Francisco Bay. A younger me would hang on tight as the world outside the windows darkened, the screeching roar of the train echoed, the railcar bumped and swayed, and I was transported through the Transbay Tube vortex! As scary as it was imagining an earthquake hitting and the whole thing collapsing, there was always a good time waiting for me on the other side.