“My case workers would come to Aloha HS every week to meet with me I was always fearful that the friends I’d spent years making would find out that I was placed into foster care and think of me differently. I’d walk into the office and they’d know that I wanted the office in the far back away from any students. I also remember when my friend’s mom told her she couldn’t hang out with me anymore because I was “a foster kid”. It was painful, unfair, and gave me more reason to believe I was and always would be unwanted and unloved just like I was told would be the case for me on a daily basis. The flashing red lights of a firetruck and police car signaled my freedom from a life of abuse but it took years for my life as an orphaned victim to truly end because of the years of trauma that I was still processing. I went through many case workers, each coming and going without warning. I finally connected with an ILP worker and suddenly lost her to a heart attack the day I started college. Foster care looked like a court room, a restraining order, medical exams, counseling, many meetings, confusion, pain, grief, finally realizing that my abuse was over, freedom to attend church, being raised by a community, provision for my needs, graduating college and beating the odds, and most of all, being taken out of death and placed on a path of life. I aged out a few years ago and despite the reality that it can be an ugly mess for so many, I saw + experienced foster care as a saving grace. @dreammakersproject is an incredible program whose heart is to grant wishes for those who have aged out of foster care and an anonymous donor made my wish for a new laptop come true! I’m so grateful + touched by a stranger’s kindness! Because of foster care, I was free to pursue the One who had kept me safe, promised me freedom, and reached into the darkest place to set me free. Because of foster care, I now have a forever family that has adopted me and given me their last names. I’m not an orphan. I’m not abandoned. I’m never alone. I belong. I have a forever seat at a table. I am loved. He is + He has given me all that I’ve ever needed + more!” -@anniemarekbarta
~ Grateful for the amount of love already; Excited to share the vision with you.. 🙏
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It seems that our thoughts become clearer in the dark, as our eyes distract us from so many different things. I have this vision in my head.. that ONE day my story will be heard. .
"My Soliloquy" Official Music Video dropping soon. ⚘
Why Im stuck, on putting out any new true fiar
Number one, I never been a lier, it ain’t that its hard
Its just to justify where Im coming from, I wanna Rap
But I don’t Trap, even so I always been a hustla holding back
My sick flow, I got more in my pinky toe, than most people even know
My gung foo for you, been like samurai’s in the cut, only I stay humble me down
Getting on my simply daily grind Im one of a kind vercitility litterally clenchin on my toung
I might have to go at it a different way, and spit some shit I truely know
But its Low, I know a lot about love and heart aches yet Im stuck back against the wall
Still trapped on this fall that I fell its too obvious to tell cause I never been a quitter but been many times I gave up, that this one Time I promised my self I wont, has been the one time I been shoulda been but still holding it in, its a sin all Im paying for that aint even mine I aint blind
I just cant seem to let go, and it’s being used to my disadvantage waisting my life away hopefully what may never come to be, all of what she won’t see, lieing to my self, she just dumb so I keep holding on, when the truth truly must be, the obviously what is consistantly making more effort to prove I don’t mean shit than to show me the love I earned im constantly
Just getting burned, then toyed to play along, its holding me back, from even one love song like If Im wareing thongs, I aint no bitch I aint no slut Living in a state of limbo and what tha fuck, its just my luck, Im not ready to give up. Yes I know I should, I know all that I could, cause I conquered it many times before, yet my hearts on the floor laughed at shitted n pissed on, but one of these days Ill be gone, no more play toy, no more good boy El cabron, yo no soy.
🚦🚦 BOUNDARIES 🚦🚦 When you feel yourself becoming angry,exhausted, resentful, pay attention to where you haven’t set a healthy boundary.
Boundaries are fair.
They are necessary.
They speak about balance! .
Do you have certain boundaries too?? #boundaries#resilience#strongwomen