It’s just been over a month since I updated how my concussion has been going and how hard it was to deal with my depression and suicidal thoughts.... again heads up trigger warning.🙏🏽 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I’ve officially been back to Parkwood for two weeks... I knew going back to Parkwood would be hard. Most people start their day at a 3/4 out of 10 on a pain/headache scale. I begin eachday at a 8 and if I’m lucky after spending some time on ice packs right after I wake up I can get my pain and headaches to a 6/7. (How the Cracker Jack am I suppose to learn at Parkwood with a 7)!!!!! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
The last week has been HUGELY different. I stopped taking one of my “Russian roulette” medicines and noticed my headaches got BETTER! My appetite was back, I was less hot like I mean I was overheating daily (side note: if you’ve met me in person you’d know that in the past it could be +30 outside and my hands were still ice cold🤷🏽♀️ circulation problems or cold hands warm heart?!) 😂 SO MUCH has changed since I stopped that medicine as I didn’t notice all the side effects it had on top of my concussion. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Although it’s nice having headaches through the day at a 5/6 my neck pain can still easily sit at a 7/8.... a 9 I’m in bed crying and a 10 I have my people begging me to go to emerge.... which actually happened last week due to seizure activity. Also the brain fogginess was unbearable Monday and Tuesday. Since then I’ve learned to somewhat live and function as if I’m on a permanent amusement park ride.🤷🏽♀️ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
ALL THAT BEING SAID... Brian injuries are hard and INVISIBLE to everyone! You might read this and think “oh fuck girl” ... mean while I’m over here being like... 🎉🎉 I’ve gotten out of bed every morning, I haven’t been suicidal (<—-!!!!!!!!!!!!), I’m eating like a teenage boy (grow food baby grow 🤰🏽)AND THE BEST PART as a kid I loved going on rides. Right now I’m trying to reconnect with the idea of having fun and laughing when the world spins. Especially when I’m looking at someone and they have two heads and 4+ eyes. 😂🐲 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
THAT RIGHT THERE MY FRIENDS = GAINS 💪🏽🎢
"What kind of Boys are we?" asked 00.
"The good kind," Sunny answered.
I'm about a quarter of the way through Division's first edit, which is to say, I'm nowhere near the end of this project.
I was planning on having wrapped up today, but I've been struggling with an overwhelming #sadness as I've been working on this book. It's been suggested that I might be experiencing an early onset of post-project depression, because all I can think about is how once #Division is done, I'll be writing #Equals and then... It'll be the end!
I've never made it to the end of writing a series before, so this is new #emotional territory for me. I've never been so sad to be somewhere near the end of a project in all my life... And I still have weeks of work left before I start the next book!!
All that to say, I've been feeling a bit out of sorts, and my emotions have put me a bit off schedule. I'm going to push through, and try to get back on track.
How are all your January projects going?
YOU ARE SACRED and SOVEREIGN 〰️ this is so powerful and takes me back to a time when I was deep in the Christian church, and this is not personal to anyone at all 🙏💗 (you have free will to choose your beliefs) however the religion/belief system that was being infiltrated was teaching me of my undeservingness, my unworthiness next to the God I serve, also that my heart was wicked and deceitful and not to be trusted....EVERY detail of that message was opposing the TRUTH with in me and chaining me in lack, in shame, in guilt, in the entrapment of limited belief in my self/my intuition/my heart and love and acceptance for myself. This is dangerous my people and enslavement, as much as many say/believe this message is "freeing", I call BULLSHIT. Its the opposite. Lets face it. I stand by this with a whole heart that has lived and experienced it humbly and in complete submission. You are Sacred Beings just as you are, and LOVED just as you are. Walk away from anything that teaches you less. When you believe that you will see the world with in you. I speak this in all love and all truth. I will NOT debate what I know, so if this doesn't resonate, simply move on from my post. My story is to be honored, and you will be hearing more, I'm getting use to me at this point so I suppose you may as well too. Unfollow if you must. If it's triggering you I say maybe sit with yourself and the Divine/God and really ask why? I LOVE ALL truly this is why I'm sharing...I live to see one break FREE, awaken from the mental programming, and to step into the Light that is YOU and the Love that is YOU. Allow yourself to recognize that you are SACRED. We are ONE. All the love beautiful souls 💗👑📿🕉✡☯️☸☮🔯♾🌎🙏
From the Peace Bridge in sunny Calgary ☀️my caring, creative and hilarious partner in business @robdriscoll44 at More L Support Services would like to wish all of our business associates and friends a peaceful and prosperous 2019! ✨ #spreadthelove#MoreL#equals#morelove
COSAS QUE PREOCUPAN A UNA MADRE LESBIANA, UN PADRE GAY O CUALQUIER SER SENSIBLE (o no) DEL MULTIVERSO. (Conclusión) [...] ¿Quién lo iba a pensar?
Nuestras preocupaciones son exactamente iguales a las de cualquier madre o padre que ama sus hijos.
Como madre me preocupan estas cosas.
No me preocupa lo que le puedan decir en el colegio o en la calle porque tiene dos mamás, o dos papás.
No me preocupa lo que piensen o digan personas que no nos conocen y pretendan hacernos daño. No tendrán nada mejor que hacer.
No me preocupa lo caduco o lo estrecho de la mente de nadie. No es mi problema.
Me ocupo de lo que tengo en casa.
Me ocupo de que mi hija tenga la confianza, el amor, y la seguridad que le permitan salir airosa de las palabras necias y malintencionadas.
Me ocupo de que mi hija tenga autoestima, educación, recursos y herramientas que la protejan frente al desconocimiento y la mala leche ajena y gratuita.
Me ocupo de que mi hija aprenda y practique la tolerancia y el respeto incluso con las cabezas que albergan los pensamientos más grises.
Me ocupo, de lo mismo que cualquiera.
Así que por favor, que nadie se preocupe de lo que no nos preocupa en absoluto a nosotros.
Que en vez de preocuparnos tanto por lo que el otro hace con su vida, igual nos iba mejor si cada cual se ocuparse de lo que tiene en casa.
Que no es poco.