Tough part of not sleeping is and always be sitting alone in a room in dead silence. It is so attractive to find until the words screaming inside your head crawls down your cheeks. Tough part of not crying is that those words screaming inside your head doesn't find its way out of your eyes or track the path to your cheeks. I don't suffer for any disease. I don't know what keeps me awake all night. I don't know why i still text people asking them if they are awake. It's my silence and me, having a quality conversation. Not late enough when they start to argue. Silence, shouldn't be confused with peace. How can one find peace in silence while there heads screams a different pitch. But night, the silence. Is the best time for me. I am awake and ready to think. While those screams try to quite me down. I think, i draw, i play, i write, i smoke, i do anything. And while i do stuff that makes me feel busy. I attract. I attract thoughts. Thoughts of positivity. Thoughts of vulnerability and dependency. Thoughts of love. Thoughts of abundance. Thoughts, that would manifest my mind to attract more and more of the good. People ask me what I do at night, why don't you sleep. Simply i smile not answering them yet, that i wake up more than they ever could.