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Can you relate??🙈⤵️
Anxiety over relaxation⁉️
This rainy day has helped me relax - I’m not really good at relaxing - relaxing actually gives me anxiety - yes - you read that right - relaxing gives me anxiety!😕
Up until this past year I couldn’t even sit still for a movie....! I’ve been practicing watching movies without looking at my phone or computer, or snacking, or getting up and pausing it for some movement! Yeah...I have to practice it! I just feel like I always have to be doing something! 🤷🏼♀️
Growing up - my family would always poke fun at it - like “Meg, just sit still!” But I JUST COULDN’T! Or whenever my family had to constantly plan events around my busy schedule with my school events, extracurricular activities, and social life 😝🙈 - they always would say “Just take a break!”
I would say that I’ve gotten better at it - @matthew_lagarce11 has helped me a bit - he makes me watch movies often, and I’m starting to like it haha! But, it’s still hard for my brain to not wander off and go back to my “work-mode” or “creation-mode” train of thought!🧠
Today - I will practice! I will watch a movie without picking up my phone and I will enjoy relaxation with my love 💗!
Side note - this bikini is adorable @villesriver slayed this design ✨💗
I don't know about you, but I'm SO sick and tired of people saying to me, "really? You have a brain injury? Umm... you look so great!" Since my brain injury, I have lost weight. At first it was an unhealthy weight loss. I had a very limited appetite and when I did want to eat, it was just chicken. Lots and lots of chicken. I lost about 15lbs. I was an unhealthy skinny. People would shower me with compliments. "Girl, you looks so fantastic!!! How did you lose so much weight?". Ugh. Over the past few months I have gained back about 10lbs. So I'm still a bit smaller than before the accident but my eating is better. Healthier. I feel good, but struggle with processing these types of comments. As an act of personal disclosure (I dislike publically talking about this), I still struggle with an eating disorder. And gosh, these compliments are huge, like HUGE, emotional/binge trigger. I understand that brain injury or not, I would still be irritated that people comment on my weight... but having this injury makes me hyper sensitive. Seriously, why do people assume that just because I look physical good, my brains is good? I'm really hoping my amazing #instagram community can help me with this. Please comment below 👇 or DM me ... how do you handle people who assume you're well because they cannot see any noticeable injury? Right now I'm thinking yelling at people, rolling my eyes at them, or just walking away aren't viable solutions cuz I'm still left irritated. Haha. #ideasplease#help#canyourelate#concussion#pcs#concussionnetwork#concussioncoach#motivationalquotes#motivational#positivevibes#positivevibesonly#concussionsurvivor#concussed#concussioninfo#concussion#concussedlife#instadaily#instalike#braininjury#brainhealth#instalove#brain#thankyou#instaquotes
Doesn't it hurt to always be someone's second choice, someone they only remember when they have no one to go to. You are a good friend to many people yes but you aren't THAT friend to anyone to whom they tell everything first. Its painful to know that those who you keep as priority don't do the same when it comes to you. I mean you just wanna go and tell them like "hi i am the kind of person that can't help but get emotionally attached with people very easily and it honestly is hard to see you choose people over me all the time. So please stop playing with my feelings and just tell me if you don't care about me because either way you are hurting me atleast ill probably move on if you tell me. Because right now i am stuck between "i really wanna talk to you" and "i really wanna get over you." But don't worry they will miss you sometime but that will only happen if you learn to get over them and not be there to listen to them rant about the people they keep priority. Also to be honest they might not understand why you are upset at first and would probably start counting out what all they did for you until they become someone's second choice and experience that hurt themselves.
I am going to pop on here again to share a few facts about myself! I feel that If we want to connect as a community (a strong one in the making), we can’t do that in its total entirety without telling some hard truths about ourselves: like our fears, what keeps us up at night, what makes our hearts sing for joy, our short comings, our victories, our weaknesses and strengths. To see more than just the put together and polished parts of ourselves, but also the messy, because that’s who we are most of the time. To be real is to be vulnerable (and being vulnerable looks different for each person, and I know it takes time to be real and open)
So here I go-five things about me:
•I’m scared that if I put myself out there that I’ll be rejected. This has happened so many times before, and I’m scared of a repeat repeat repeat 🦊
•I Absolutely Love Music! 🎵 I’ve written hundreds (I kid you not) of songs, though I have lost many of them too. I still create songs with the keyboard, and I’m documenting them Much Better to not loose them! 🦊
•That people would determine my worth or value or influence by the number of followers on Instagram I have. That they’d look past me, because they don’t see anybody of worth because I don’t have a lot of followers like another person does. Scared that I wouldn’t be given a fair chance 🦊
•I’m not a social butterfly, but that doesn’t make me particularly shy. It takes time for me to come out of my shell, but when I do watch out 😂👻 🦊
•I have a heart for learning new things, but they have to peak an interest to me. I love learning about history and time and how it used to be back when!
What about you? What’s something you’d like to share about yourself?