These are the eyes of a tired woman. It’s 7:30pm and I’m in bed. I’ve felt like this all afternoon while at work. Day of 2 of progesterone and whoever told me it’s not that bad I beg to differ😕. But anyways, I wanted to write a more elaborate post about me but I don’t have the energy. I’m pretty sure it’s the progesterone making me tired. Usually I get a second wind after work...but not today. Hope to get some more easy yoga in tomorrow morning.
the last few Good Grief restocks have completely blown me away. my heart is so full of gratitude that @goodgriefjournals are getting into the hands of so many people that need it. this little map shows all of the states that Good Grief has made a home in.
what you don't see is the number of people in each of these states as well as the people in other countries of the world that have copies of Good Grief there too.
my heart is full but there is more work to do. 1 in 8 couples have trouble getting pregnant or sustaining a pregnancy. 7.4 million women have received infertility treatments in their lifetime. WHICH MEANS there are a lot more people who need Good Grief in their life & it is my goal to get Good Grief to as many of them as i can.
if you have shared Good Grief, purchased Good Grief for yourself or your friend-- THANK YOU & let's keep this thing going! 💛
Was driving home and "When I pray for you" happened to play on my mix, and cue all the feels. This is the first verse, and I relate to all of it.
My little frozen embies, I have such hopes and dreams for you. I picture laying you on my chest for the first time, snuggling you and smelling that sweet baby smell. I picture your first steps, your first tears, your sweet moments before bed reading with your daddy. I picture it all.
😂😢🤣😭 Happy tears, sad tears, laughing tears, mad tears. 💧💧💧 I cried watching Gilmore Girls and Big Bang Theory today and when the wind blew my flower pots over and broke them. So ready to start estrogen next week. I’ve been a mess. My poor husband 🤦🏼♀️ #lupron#FET#IVF#ivfjourney
1 32 hours ago
Hey friends!! I haven’t introduced myself lately so I thought today would be a good day to do so. My name is Stephanie I’m a 33 year old momma of 3 miracle babies. I married my high school sweetheart Jason at age 19. I graduated as an RN/BSN in 2009 and have worked critical care since day one.I started trying for a baby about 2 years into my nursing career ,but... I wasn’t having periods..I diagnosed myself with hypothalamic amenorrhea and this was confirmed with an official diagnosis with my reproductive endocrinologist. See ..I ran all the time lifted weights alllll the time and ate ... well.. never . I weighed a whole 109 lbs and was 5 4 ... I though I was healthily . But I soon realized I had a lot to learn on this “healthy” topic. So naturally, being the type A personality that I am . I Immersed my self in the world of hypothalamic amenorrhea and health. I regained my cycles after gaining 30 pounds and tons of self love . I then went on to have 3 miscarriages one being an ectopic. I was devastated, broken. I once again started reading , educating myself. I was learning about environmental toxins , GMOs , organic, BPA, toxic household products, toxic lotions,.. I started to purge this shit from my life little by little . I then went on to IVF ,3 times with no success. Then I spontaneously got pregnant had my miracle baby Vayda. I was still learning and slowing purging all the toxic crap from my life. I went on to have 5 more miscarriages one being an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured my left tube leading to emergency surgery. We then went through one more #IVF and one #FET both unsuccessful, I then got pregnant naturally with my sweet Juniper. While breastfeeding Juniper still on demand multiple times a day and night #cosleepingproblems , on my first post partum cycle I conceived my love Olive ,after a rocky first trimester with bleeding and worries she made her way into my arms. All my girls were born vaginally with zero medications. Each birth brought so much joy and happiness and I found a part of me that was missing . I am passionate about natural living . Wholistic living ,and ridding my life of toxic crap..including people. My sweet June not pictured.
we are pregnant✨
for so long I didn’t know if I would be able to say those words. we struggled for almost 3 years riding the rollercoaster of infertility. battling through the depression it brings, the loneliness, doubt and heartache. I know we may not be over all our hurdles yet, and it’s very early, but this community has helped me, specifically, because of our vulnerability and the raw moments. this post was bittersweet to write because although I am eternally grateful and elated to be able to say those three words, my heart hurts for those of you still fighting for your dream baby. i’m sorry if this info stings or triggers negative feelings, for that is not my intention. this community has been honest and a safe place. and has supported me during the lowest times and brought me hope. I pray you can find that in this post
Shots start tomorrow! Spent a few minutes getting it all organized. This week is testing me already. Missing my husband, trying to pack and do my job simultaneously... then my Mawmaw calls and tells me she fell down and hit her head. Thankfully she is ok, just in the hospital to make sure nothing was hurt. Guess who’s going to be stress eating for the foreseeable future! This girl. *shoves potato chips in face*
This week we have our beta test. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
On Friday morning, I go in for a blood test to later in the day get the heart dropping phone call on the outcome of our transfer last week. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
This is what it all comes down to. All the waiting, all the appointments, all the shots...it’s almost too overwhelming to even think about. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
At this point, I surrender it all to the Lord because there is nothing else I can do. I’ve done everything in my control and now we simply have to wait on the results from it all. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
This #tww has been nice, exhausting, long, and exciting. I can honestly say that this is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. But, I am hopeful for the future and trusting in the process. It’s really hard to not be in control. Am I right, or am I right?! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Here’s to a good week trusting and letting go!
31 1156 hours ago
VET is a sleeping giant in the making...FET got awesome stamped alongside CLER. But seems Alts are doing well as BTC is hitting previous support prices.
Right now the confirmation tag price is sweet for entry, its momentum is aimed @ 5 to 6% gain from its current price, ie expect a new higher price soon.
First med in my FET protocol is Estradiol! On cycle day 2 I will go get my baseline endometrial lining check and then begin estradiol. I’ll be taking 3 mg in the morning and 3 mg in the evening. On day 8 I will go back to the clinic for another lining check to monitor the thickness of endometrium.
Just noticed one of my kids has been in the corner (timeout) in all my videos over the last few days 🤣🙈 They’ve been on another level lately but thank God for home workouts because Lord knows I need these endorphins! 😉💪🏼
Cycle day 6 today and so far so good still. Starting to wake ridiculously early in the mornings and wide awake for the day but I knew that would happen due to the steriods.
Starting to get excited and hopefull that this could be the one. But the fear of the fail is still there. So prayers and baby dust please send our way xxx
We have decided not to ask for the grading of the embryo this time and just put our trust and faith into it, that it is good enough and not over analyse it. #ivfjourney#ourjourney#ttc#ttccommunity#fet#donoregg#ttc#ivfgirl#ivflife#infertilityawareness
23 10412 hours ago
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We’re 2dp5dt (Days Post 5-Day Transfer)! TWO days that I’ve had our little one on board. ❤️
I’ve had mild cramping for the majority of yesterday and some today. In the middle of the night, I had to lay on my side with my legs curled up because my cramps made my stomach feel tight and almost stretched. It was weird and uncomfortable!
The cramping could be 100% from the procedure but I can’t help but to think that maybe it’s our embryo getting comfy already! 🤞🏽
It is through tears and with overwhelming gratitude that we share our FET in March was successful! The emotional and physical toll this journey has taken has been nothing short of difficult, but through it all, I’ve seen God’s hand at work in our lives. I see the way He has changed our hearts, strengthened our faith, deepened our relationships. I see His grace poured out day after day through my doubts and fears. The impact of infertility doesn’t leave the moment you get pregnant, but forever changes every part of your being. •••
Thank you to everyone who messaged me while we took an Instagram break to check in. Originally, we hadn’t planned on stepping away from this account, but I’ve had a bit of a scary start to this pregnancy. Right after we got our positive test, I started bleeding and have continued to bleed over the last month. I’ve had 4 scans where the tech couldn’t see any reason for it, and it was absolutely terrifying. Finally on Friday, they found a subchorionic hematoma. We are still on edge and will be monitoring it weekly and praying it resolves on its own. •••
Pregnancy after infertility is not all rainbows and butterflies. My biggest daily battle is anxiety, and the added complication of a SCH makes it worse. Right now, I’m taking it one day at a time and focusing on the positive. We say things like “when” the baby comes in November, not “if”. Every day with this baby is a blessing, and will never take that for granted.
Lastly, I wanted to acknowledge all the women still in the wait. I know how deep pregnancy announcements hurt, I’ve been there many times. We knew we wanted to share our update with you but also wanted to reassure you that this account will still be used for the original purpose of encouragement. I plan on keeping my pregnancy updates to a minimum. Looking forward to continuing cheering everyone on in their journeys! ❤️ Chris and Katie #infertility#infertilitycommunity#IVF#FET#ivfsuccess#pregnantafterinfertility#dueinnovember#endometriosis
78 1,01921 April, 2019
Tomorrow is graduation day!!!! Holy freaking crap I can’t believe it! In case you don’t know what exactly graduation day means, it’s from our fertility clinic!⠀
It’s a big step! It means that we are about to be a regular ole pregnant couple, almost. We still have two more weeks of estrogen and progesterone in oil injections, but heck, I can do that in my sleep now!⠀
Technically I don’t have my next appointment set up with our OB yet because of all the lovely hoops we need to jump through regarding “being released” from the fertility clinic, but I’m hoping our next appointment will be at the 12 week mark!⠀
As for this pregnancy so far, it’s been eye opening, mind blowing, and hormone raging! I don’t actually have a bump yet, so even though we are measuring at 10 weeks 5 days, this above photo is featuring a 9oz steak, baked potato and a side of baby! 😂🤦🏼♀️🤰🏼⠀
And just like that, I’m pregnant until proven otherwise with this little thing 😬 Transfer went really well, the embryologist was very happy with how our embryo thawed and my lining was looking good too.
Now to sit on my hands for 12 days...
73 70923 April, 2019
36 weeks pregnant ✨ you have no idea how long we’ve waited for you little one.